#prayforheidi

[pokedude20]

Find you a girl who loves like Heidi but never be a Cartman to her.

[the-smiley-1]

Cancer should get cancer and die

I'm going to do this post now, when I have like, 1 follower, because one day I might have many and won't be able to write personal stuff like this online. Obviously, if you follow Louis Tomlinson on Twitter, you'd know that the girl who used to run SpinTheLouis on twitter recently passed away. Cancer beat her. If you don't follow him, then you got to hear it now. Cancer to me is a really sore object to talk about. Many in my family have suffered and some have died because of it, and I've had friends whose parents have passed away, and even friends who's beat or is beating it this very second. Since Manon (SpinTheLouis) was my age, her passing away has made me really thoughtful. My lifelong friend has cancer now, and is fighting hard to be well. Luckily her doctors are great, and there are more than one backup plan when it comes to her type of cancer. However, she is fifteen. Her treatment is said to take nine months. Next month we start high school. I can't help but thinking how suddenly her life turned. She got her test results back on new years eve, so her start of the year wasn't exactly the best one... And I wish all the time that there was something I could do. I wish that I would go visit her more often, that I could take the pain away, damn it - I even wish that I was the one and not her. Because, what were the odds? It could just as well have been me, or my brother, or another friend of mine. But it wasn't. I think of her every day. She won't die, of course she won't. She has the best parents, supporting brothers, friends who loves her, and strength. She also has really good medical help, who makes everything easier. I don't know if anyone ever will read this post, but if you by any chance do, please reblog, or help out by typing #PrayForHeidi or #GetWellHeidi on twitter. It would mean a lot to me and to her if she ever sees it. I love you, Heidi, and I might haven't been the friend I was supposed to be, but you have had a special place in my heart since the day we ran around naked as toddlers, and you will forever have that spot! <3