Dearest Beloved, one day I will run your mind like a childhood game. you will wonder what became of the girl who blushed every time you called her name. The one who laughed nervously with your every word. you will wonder if she still giggles like a girl and avoids eye contact when speaking. I don’t. That was reserved for you alone. I was so nervous around you. So fucking eager to be perfect for you, I would agree to anything. You never saw me as enough. I loved you for years and I was ready to love you years more, but I grew tired. Do you know how exhausting it is wondering if today you will love me like you did last night? I shouldn’t have spent so many Sunday afternoons hoping you would ring my door. You left too much room for doubt darling. So what happened? One night I finally saw how much more I have to offer than convenience and a warm bed. Love doesn’t leave you lonely. I decided I had to let you go. May you one day find peace. Love.
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