suppressed sexuality
I dont know how to really start this since im not yet that ~comfortable~ admitting that well uhmmm... Let me introduce myself first before i make that quick turn. Im 19 and from the Philippines.The following are excerpts of my life leading me to realizing that well.... Im gay. Wow isnt that both liberating and terrifying to say.
Age: 5/6
It was May and I was excited because we were going to shop for school. I was ecstatic. Upon arriving I went to the notebook aisle and started looking for different yet similar pieces of notebooks. My heart pounded when I saw a pink notebook of Aurora and decided i’d to collect all of the Disney Princesses namely Ariel, Mulan, Cinderella, Belle, Aurora, Snow White and Pocahontas ( tho she wasn’t my favorite) Went home and got disappointed when i found out I had to cover them with colors each representing a subject. I was heartbroken but still I was excited for school.
Age: still 5 or 6
School was great I was hanging out already with all of my classmates well it wasn’t really that hard to hang out with them because we were only 8, YES 8. I remember being so close to this guy named Rob. At first i was confused why was I so into him in a way and as someone who hasn’t had prior knowledge to the existence of “gays” I settled with the thought that maybe i was jealous of how handsome he is.
To be continued
