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Sometimes, I want to be more, But I can’t

Sometimes, I want to become more than who I am but I can’t

maybe it’s the pessimism that’s preventing me from doing so or maybe it’s the lack of confidence that I have. 

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relationship status!

we broke up. yes. we finally ended our 20 month long relationship. Honestly, it wasn’t even meant to last that long. Here’s our story and why it wasn’t meant to last even from the start.

THE START (Baby this is the start!)

I won tickets to LANY. I wasn’t planning on going because it’s only for one person and I really didn’t know them yet what I do know however was that he’s going. So i showered and went. I met up with a friend who was also watching the show, I stayed with their seats even though the ticket I won was better. The show ended they were great. I got a text from my friend who was with him. They wanted to hangout, I got excited, bid goodbye to my friend and went with them. We went to a bar, for someone who hadn’t had dinner and wasn’t really drinking I wanted to make an impression, took out 4 bottles. I confessed and things started slow

WE’RE IN FLAMES (I love the burn)

We started hanging out after that, we were fast and even though I wanted to take things slow, I got caught in the wildfire, We’re making out everywhere! Suddenly, I’m in this whole new world of booze and sleeping over. I wanted more of him, So I asked my folks if I could get an apartment so that I could study and live with him. You know what happens next. We had lots of sex!

BURNOUT  (Burns really do hurt)

After a while, reality was starting to catch up on us, things weren’t the same as before. At first I was fine, This is normal, the butterflies died, I was wrong. Apparently, his butterflies went somewhere else.

CATCHING THE BUTTERFLIES (Now, I’m just making this look cool)

I started having gut feelings, Id see him talking with someone else even late at night. Things he wouldn’t do with me anymore. He’d bail on my dates and make excuses. I was in distraught, I couldn’t eat anything. I found out he was still meeting with his ex behind my back. I almost didn’t show up to my academic defense but I pushed through, bawling while making final edits to my presentation. He said sorry, I forgave him. The next day, I found out he cheated on me, months ago. 

I bawled my eyes out that night. How could he? I was at my best. I always made sure to be at my best. I made sure I was never boring. I made sure I was everything any guy would have wanted. I went downhill from here especially when I forgave him just hours after finding out.

THE MORNING AFTER (play Tuso by Hans Dimayuga)

It wasn’t the same after that, as months passed, I tried keeping myself and our relationship together, But let’s face it, juggling two things would just lead you to eventually just focusing on one. I lost myself.

TO BE CONTINUED.....................................................

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trigger warning: ///

well hello. i wanted to write some stuff so opened this. i decided to use this account once again because this is the only medium that i have that my friends have no trace off. well here goes

ive been dealing with a lot of pain recently and i don’t know how to channel it accordingly. i thought i was used to getting this attacks but boy was i wrong. this time it was strong, it got to a point that crying didn’t help, i felt helpless and i had no one to rely on, not event myself unfortunately. the pain was so bad i thought of way of how to get it out, i found one. i slit my wrist multiple times. i know its so bad but will you believe me when i tell you every time i do that the pain diminishes????? i am scared of what other things ill be able to do because honestly, cutting is starting to not work anymore. 

[narnia]

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random kwento

i have forgotten to make ayos this so that when I look back its maayos hahah...

anyway, im planning for my birthday which is 2 days from now HAHAHA and i need your help, my budget is kinda limited since i havent received my check yet, so a good question would be, should I splurge more on booze or on food?

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Coming Out To My Very Religious Mom

Hi, Tumblr Geeks. A lot, and when I say a lot, I really mean a lot has happened, I wish I could tell it to all of you in one seating but unfrotunately, an hours time inside this expensive internet cafe is already too much for my below minimum wage’s ass so here I go with my coming out story... (not joking about my pay)

I was supposed to be on my way to meet my secret boyfriend back then, like Im already inside the car with my mom (will take her to our business) when she asked to turn around because she’s feeling a bit off like she was fainting so we had to go back. When we got back to our house, I escorted her to her room and there she rested.

When she got her energy back, we started talking about my future. All was going well. I was in my element as some would might say HAHA

and then it happened, I. Said. It. With. All. Of. My. Soul.

I started crying, bawling, I couldnt even look at her, I mean, how could I? I felt like I was a dissapointment. 

It was quiet. I kept on crying. 

“Its okay, Ive known it since you were little, and I love you still” was the words that followed up the emptiness... those words are what I needed and I looked at her and she was smiling... genuinely and I smiled too and cried even harder because she chose me, she chose me still and she will always choose. I ran towards her and hugged her so tight.

She hushed me and all I could remember was closing my eyes with a grin on my face.

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lapit na pala ako mag100 followers dito HAHAH anyway happy new year t0 those who still view my post and sa mga susunod man na titignan to hope to interact with you all :) 

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tangina ang sarap mong sukuan

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please dont love only when it’s convenient

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arat laro

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Kausapin mo naman ako? Hahahah hay

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suppressed  sexuality

I dont know how to really start this since im not yet that ~comfortable~ admitting that well uhmmm... Let me introduce myself first before  i make that quick turn. Im 19 and from the Philippines.The following are excerpts of my life  leading me to realizing that well.... Im gay. Wow isnt that  both liberating and terrifying to say.   

Age: 5/6

It was May and I was excited because we were going to shop  for school. I was ecstatic. Upon arriving I went to the notebook aisle and started looking for different yet similar pieces of notebooks. My heart pounded when I saw a pink notebook of Aurora and decided i’d to collect all of the Disney Princesses  namely Ariel, Mulan, Cinderella, Belle, Aurora, Snow White and Pocahontas ( tho she wasn’t my favorite) Went home and got disappointed when i found out I had to cover them with colors  each representing a subject. I was heartbroken but still I was excited for school.

Age: still 5 or 6

School was great I was hanging out already with all of my classmates well it wasn’t really that hard to hang out with them because we were only 8, YES 8. I remember being so close to this guy named Rob. At first i was confused why was I so into him in a way and as someone who hasn’t had prior knowledge to the existence of “gays” I settled with the thought that maybe i was jealous of how handsome he is. 

To be continued 

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Anonymously ask me anything

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penge isa pls

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pls huhu

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““When I was about 20 years old, I met an old pastor’s wife who told me that when she was young and had her first child, she didn’t believe in striking children, although spanking kids with a switch pulled from a tree was standard punishment at the time. But one day, when her son was four or five, he did something that she felt warranted a spanking–the first in his life. She told him that he would have to go outside himself and find a switch for her to hit him with. The boy was gone a long time. And when he came back in, he was crying. He said to her, “Mama, I couldn’t find a switch, but here’s a rock that you can throw at me.” All of a sudden the mother understood how the situation felt from the child’s point of view: that if my mother wants to hurt me, then it makes no difference what she does it with; she might as well do it with a stone. And the mother took the boy into her lap and they both cried. Then she laid the rock on a shelf in the kitchen to remind herself forever: never violence. And that is something I think everyone should keep in mind. Because if violence begins in the nursery one can raise children into violence.””

— Astrid Lindgren, author of Pippi Longstocking, 1978 Peace Prize Acceptance Speech (via jillymomcraftypants)

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game life

so i dont know if a lot of you guys know but i am into playing League of Legends it consumes most of my time especially back in sophomore year college. Now as incoming senior i think its high time for me to like really put myself in a good perspective and direction so yeah if you ever want to play League of Legends just hit me up. Im not that good tho haha IGN: not_allex 

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UPDATE

category is: im not straight yun lang ha ha ha ha

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