#probably a side effect

[dontkillcoyotes]

I'm slowly coming back to life but I still feel so weak. The meds my psychiatrist gave me just made me a little weird.

[ldpdlisbbygirl]

when i was in the darker part of my depression with no job or anything i used to make the crappiest videos and graphics for hooouuurrrssss

the biggest reason i am so melancholic over teen wolf is because that show was my interest for about 2 years straight and helped me to push out creative things and focus on something else other than my shitty circumstances (feeling like a failure combined with being broke and living with my abuser)

but now like

in order for me to make anything it has to possess me

i have to be overcome with a song and an idea in order to create anything it will drive me crazy if i don’t. 

there are moments where i’ll be like ‘man i wanna vid to this song it would be so lit’

but then there are the moments where it is like ‘i need to create this and i need to do it now otherwise it will drive me up the wall and haunt me’

those moments are much fewer now but i’m always pleased when they come

if not exhausted after

[apparentmagnitudes]

This has been a rant.

Jesus fucking Christ. Sometimes I just seriously fucking hate being a girl. Granted being a girl is pretty great Most Of The Time. BUT JFC bleeding from our fucking loins once a month for about 40 or so years is bad enough but fuck no mother nature lets throw in migraines, cramps, and a plethora of just as bad shit. What the fuck aren't we doing this world a big enough favor by fucking repopulating it if we so choose. But fuck no here have so cramping, worse mood swings, cravings, migraines and interrupting our fucking sleep pattern because we have to deal with our fucking bleeding loins at all hours of the fucking night. JFC i hate this.