Jan 7, 2025
goddd why do i even still care
#i feel like im gonna vomit#i also just realized he's probably in my class tomorrow morning. lovely#i keep seeing people walk into my job that look just like his sister from far away too which gives me a damn heart attack#idk what i want anymore but being around him makes me ill rn I'm so sad and torn up and he probably doesn't give a shit#probably never did#i at least wanna talk but he's still acting like I don't exist#which is probably my fault for saying i wish we'd never met#i want to just be over it but i don't know if i can be. i thought i was close for a while but i still think of him constantly#especially recently i keep seeing stuff and almost thinking i should get it for him and then remembering I can't all in the same moment#sometimes i think we met too early or something bc im usually kinda depressingly good at letting go of people#but something about him i just can't i don't know why and it kinda makes me angry#i feel genuine fear when he comes into the same room because i don't like that he has this effect on me#it feels like something is unfinished at the very least with him but hell if i know what#my dumbass finished our last argument pretty fuckin well
