Ranting...Again.
i put my dreams on hold...for something I thought is valuable to me and for what? For you to ruin it and tarnished every passion I had. Now the delay has put me so out of practice, I can't sing for shit. I'm not as lucky as other ppl, with a strong voice or even the appearance. So I have to work three times as hard to even catch up. Then I put my life into taiko, but get shit.
I know its complaining...but there really is nothing NOTHING I can do to change this. Cause i'm not allowed to leave, and i'm not allowed to speak my mind, and I'm not allowed to perform because I failed last quarter all for a team that really isnt a team. I love taiko itself, I love playing it, and I love watching it. But when I sacrificed a dream that I can honestly say is a lot harder to grasp than others because I don't have the genetic privileges, all I ask is for some understanding, not for you to force me and threaten me to stay in something that is NOT for me, even if i do love it.
this is probably just me disappointed in myself for getting distracted in college. other asians will get the spotlight before I can even get in the game.