3. OH GOD BEST GAME I DON'T KNOW D: I love all the games I've ever played for different reasons! But for the sake of brevity, let me say Skyrim, because it lets me shoot anyone, and I mean anyone, who disrespects me or my loved ones STRAIGHT IN THE FACE. They may not die, but it is very, very satisfying. i am not a good person
4. The worst game I've every played... By virtue of performance on my computer, i'm gonna hafta go with the Banner Saga. NOT BECAUSE IT WAS HORRIBLE but because it like stuttered to a halt after the first loading screen EVERY TIME I TRIED TO PLAY so I never really got anywhere. sigh. But no really I haven't really hated anything? I did hate the fact that your gender in ME1 affected which squadmate was fucking dumb enough to get close to the beacon. As a lesbian, I was deeply disappointed that I didn't get to save Ashley. BOO
7. I will never forget Dragon Age Origins for the writing that ripped my heart to shreds while still motivating me to keep playing. It was the first such emotionally intense game I ever played.
8. Journey has the best soundtrack of a game I think I've heard in a while. I've never actually played Journey, as I'm exclusively a PC gamer, but GOD IT'S SO BEAUTIFUL. For a game I've actually played.... Mass Effect 2. Samara's Theme and Suicide Mission and The End Run and all the Purgatory tracks a;lsdkjfl; asdkfjaskl;fj sldkjfasklfjks
28. Which character's clothes do I wish I owned the most? Uh... Not the Inquisitor's, because WHAT UGLY PAJAMAS and WHAT AN UGLY PANTSUIT. All the Mass Effect folks have like uniforms and fancy clothes that look so uncomfortable. DAO armors all show a lil too much skin for me... But you know what? Leliana's DAI outfit actually looks comfy. Minus the greaves. YAY HOODS ESPECIALLY PURPLE ONES but like also ME3 Shep's hoodie looks pretty sweet
Could you say more about your conversation with Loki, how do you know so well what he says and thinks? Sorry if it's too personal i just find it really interesting
Yeah sure. I talk to him on a daily basis, but usually I don't feel compelled to blog about it. I used to have a religious blog that I used but tbh I'm not too keen on the community drama (or any drama) and so I didn't post for ages and now I've deleted it. It did have all my posts explaining my UPG (unverified personal gnosis) and how I get it, but I've no quarrel with typing it out again. Under the cut again because it's gonna get a bit long and stuff.
I used to think, when I was little, that he was an imaginary friend. You know, like everybody has? But sometimes I would feel like I was being watched and I would get really scared by it. From the age 6 up I told myself that Harry Potter was watching me under his invisibility cloak and so I wouldn't get scared. I then started interacting with this Harry Potter. So any way, blah blah normal childhood imaginary friend stuff. But then I realised they weren't going away. At all. I was nine, I think, when most of my friends had grown out of this whole thing and I realised I was being a bit strange. I was also depressed at this time and started self harming at the age of eleven. It was during this time that I really disliked this thing being around because it felt like I couldn't grow up or that there was something wrong with me. I asked it to go away on many occasions. Sometimes it did, but if I was upset or angry or hurting myself it would outright refuse to. It talked with me, just like an imaginary friend would, and it told me no. Not until I was sane of mind, not until I was safe.
Skip to twelve and I visited my Gran in Cornwall and discovered that Pagan Religions were still being practised. I didn't put two and two together, I didn't travel a path very long. Fast forward to seventeen and I finally get back into paganism with far more knowledge and emotional maturity, and eventually do put two and two together. I officially meet Loki as He truly is.
But by this point I'd already basically had a whole lifetime of being around Him, just not knowing who He was. Now in hindsight I can see all the clues and hints and everything (just like with my homosexuality ahahaha) but back then I had no idea. I just knew it had a personality of it's own. So I've basically spent a lifetime already talking with Him. It comes naturally now, and I don't really think I could lose it?
But onto the actual 'how do I know' question... I'm not sure?? It's like He's there but He isn't. He's this energy, not a physical form - though He could possess/horse one. And I can feel Him in sort of... points of sensitivity. Like if He 'touches' my hand I can feel it, even though there is no physical touch. I hear His voice not in my ears but in my head. When I asked Him about this about 3 years ago now He said that as energy He has no voice but he can transmit thought, idea, speech. There's a sort of link between us that allows it. And then my mind translates that into something that I can understand. Which is also why sometimes I can get confused or miss things. Of course this is ALL religion and so I'm not asking you to believe any of this because I know how strange it sounds I really do--
As for knowing what He thinks- I don't. At all. Sometimes I'll have an inkling, but it's more reading His mannerisms like you would with anyone you've known a while. Loki is one mysterious and tricky fucker - and I say that fondly, of course. Sometimes I've thought He was telling me to do something for an obscure or small reason, and then I'll realise that it's actually part of a larger lesson and it's sort of baffling how He weaves this intricate plans. Sometimes I've thought He was telling me to do something as part of an important lesson, and it'll turn out to be a joke. Though He seems to have a complete understanding of me, I will only ever have a partial understanding of Him, and that's kind of what a relationship with a God is like. You are of completely different species. It's like I would not perfectly understand my cat, nor my cat me. It's super duper weird.
131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?
I already have and I would again, yes. Right now I want someone close to home/London, but I wouldn't mind meeting them online. In fact I currently have a date with a girl I met on the internet ;)
196-You’re given $10,000…under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to?
I would give part to my mum and dad, and then I would give the rest to good charities and activists working in Gaza.
197-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?
