Okay so rant time - I have been trying to bounce my ideas off of someone else but every time I write a message to a person I delete it so I decided why not write a post.
You know that feeling you get when you change something, like get a haircut or move your furniture around and it just feels so refreshing and new well I need that feeling.
I have written a few posts over the last few days along the lines of not being brave or strong enough to do something drastic. Every time I want to I feel a big brick wall in my way. I just want to feel pretty.
I was thinking about my hair - Im not allowed to dye it crazy colors and I have spent a good 2 years growing out my hair and I don't really want to cut it.
Ive been wanting to get a tattoo and I have begged my parents and they finally said okay but now I don't know what I want. Plus the whole its going to be on you forever sorta freaks me out, even though I know its about the memories or feelings.
I was thinking about makeup and clothes - Well thats money and I am a lazy person. Doing makeup is effort for me plus I'm not good enough. Also I sorta don't like the way I dress, I have my own look but I don't think its pretty and I feel like other looks won't fit me.
Some piercings are cool but I don't think they work for me.
I can't rearrange my room cause I just don't have space with the furniture I have.
I applaud anyone who puts effort into how they look, what they wear, takes care of their body. You guys are incredible and amazing.
If anyone has any ideas or suggestions then I would love to hear them.
