#prodctive

[dayonestreet]

I Am Productive

[dmbveine]

I (Don’t) need my dRuGs ~PILOT~

I found my moms old laptop a while back after devastatingly waking up to my phone covered in “ChUcKo FoR CoCoA PuFfS” Juice (not sponsored) (it was actually water) . Ever since then I've grown to realize my surroundings , without having my phone I now know more things about the people I live with ~lets just say I wont be loving anyone for awhile~. For the rest of my summer I will be cooped up in my room  finding ways to “improve” the little something an asshole invented called “life”. I’m starting to get back into art , reading more , completing my plan for world domination (not really, maybe taking over a small island) and pre-paring my “I HATE YOU” (i actually luv u) speech for all my friends when  i get a new phone and open snap chat to zero messages . this might be my most productive summer yet . I don’t quite know why i’m writing this at 2:00 in the morning . Anyways, ill keep whoever’s interested updated .    ;)

[blackcatclamor]

Today:

-Class

-Cats

-Work at Fro Yo

-Cats

- Train at the dojo

-Cats

[livinitupdaybyday-blog]

Just an other day

So today has been productive, I have cleaned, worked, worked some more, found out some facts, and getting ready for classes.  I have also done laundry and finishing washing my sheets.

In other news John says hes gone again but Jared seems interested again.  I really would just like a break.  Know what it is like to be truly single again, with no guys after me, does that exist?

I really would like to just have it so all I have to think about is me, not in a selfish way, but in a way that when I decide about work and plans I do not have to ask anyone else what they are doing then and worrying about making someone upset.  It will be just me who decides plans.  That would be nice going into my 20s.  Maybe I will get that.

[maddiegracerae]

My productivity goes up about 90% in the middle of the night. 2pm: "nap time." 2am: "you know what would be awesome?! If I re arranged all my furniture and baked a 6 layer cake!"

[feeling-all-the-feelings]

And so the new meds begin

Apparently they're quite strong so I've taken alf the dose my psych suggested. I trust my GP much more on these things! Anywho I'm expecting to feeling pretty out of it. I feel like I've been quite productive today anyways, written that essay, I baked some biscuits and they look really cool :D and got my meds sorted!

My sister has started taking verbal jabs at me related to mental stuff. Earlier my mum asked if my arm was healed andI said yes, my sister then goes "yeah it just looks horrific" just pretended to not hear her...she's been saying other stuff like I told her to get a stress ball to deal with her anger and she was like "Yeah you can talk" Not really sure what to make of it! It's new territory. Just ignoring it really... I'm not going to feel obligated to cover my scars in my own home though. I just am fed up of being here now though, I want to move out, I know I couldn't live alone but ugh I'm just fed up.

 Not sure how the feelings are feeling. Pretty ok. nothing major I don't think.