teenage personality crisis
As a 17 year old I have the urge to speak loudly, try to change the world, live in the moment. But it’s hard to not know what you want to do in life exactly. Sure they say You can be anything you want to be but what is that tho?
This is post is just me randomly talking about my interests which I understand isn’t interesting but it’s supposed to be a call to my confused-as-fuck-about-life friends so here it is
Math is my high school major. I love it, I honestly think it’s fun and I want to study it in college as well. But what comes after? I don’t wanna be a teacher and I am not sure what I can do with a mathematics degree.
I also think management is interesting although I have no actual clue what that means. I would like to be a part of a big company, work with people but also kind of have a leader role, I feel like decision making and planning suits me. I don’t want a regular office job where everyday’s the same and you just get stressed out and back pain as a result, so that’s a no from me. I have to keep moving and enjoy what I’m doing...
Speaking of which, being a professional athlete is my dream. I have been doing karate for 10 years and I’m a black belt, but only 2 years ago I realised that I actually want to succeed in sport. I think as an athlete I can make a lot of change and start my own organisations while travelling the world. Having a healthy lifestyle and a career that depends mostly if not only on my own hard work sounds like a pretty good thing, but takes a lot of sacrifice and risk.
Then, I have to admit, I get really attached to TV shows and movies I like - but who doesn’t?? I mean I literally can’t just like them - I either don’t enjoy them at all or fall completely in love with the cast, the plot, I become inspired and amazed by the message they send and then I spend hours watching behind the scenes just to fall in love with the real life friendships on set. Those are times I think what a beautiful thing it is to be an actor - you can completely be somebody else in order to learn new experiences that help you find yourself, you get to meet so many great people and spend weeks with them creating something that is supposed to speak to its audience. I honestly love the art of acting so much, but again, it’s the hardest one of all and I just forget about that every time I give it a thought...
That’s just my inner-child speaking when asked What do you want to be when you grow up? I always thought I’d have it figured out but looks like I grew up and I’m lost more than ever.
If you guys have similar dilemma, I’d be happy to talk to you. Also some advice perhaps? I need that.
Till next time, my dear generation, I love you all











