“Stop, stop it! You’re hurting yourself!”
clenched fists tugged without mercy on dark brown locks, teeth raking over a bloodied split lip, hazel eyes unfocused, mildly absent, lost deeply in a cascade of thoughts dripping with the black inks of self-loathing.
he could not escape t h i s.
no matter who the timeless alien clung to, how brave or strong, they always learnt, WRONGLY, that he was worth risking death for.
he barely knew the girl; human, tagging along for the adventure, investigating the impossible. the very picture of innocent, UNTAINTED curiosity.
they a l l came to him with dreams WAITING to be confirmed. their futures BURNED in their eyes and his mind, and he could NOT help himself. their potential was intoxicating and he was so very LONELY.
but now she was g o n e and it was his HIS FAULT.
he wooed them with the p r o m i s e of the complexities of the universe; an offer NONE could resist. and like soldiers they valiantly charged into HIS BATTLES.
he was dark and dangerous again. the ONCOMING storm, an ageless, b l o o d s t a i n e d creature TRAPPED within the dorky limbs of what was practically a CHILD.
( all this yet he had nothing to lose, and they had EVERYTHING. humans with their damned futures and HOPES. they had to work SO HARD just to live and breathe. )
a frustrated CRY erupted from deep within his chest, and he s l a m m e d his hands down, rushing them across the table top laden with various metallic bits and gear.
he can tell those he swore to protect THIS day would throw their f r i g h t e n e d gazes and settle into their uncomfortable silences. all save the ONE who has spoken up in the midst of his devastated RAGE.
the time lord tossed his body DOWN, engulfing his face in work-calloused palms.
❛ this was never supposed to happen. do you understand? her deaths was not FIXED, i should’ve been able to S A V E HER. ❜
