This is just a general call for good vibes because this year has been an up/down one since the year began and I'm only surviving this with my sanity intact because I finally got meds, which also have helped increase my energy levels on the whole to back what they used to be a few years ago.
But there's a chance that, thru a domino sequence, that I'll lose access to them for a year :))
So I could just really use good vibes for the daily, weekly, monthly, year.... To get thru the challenges presented to me, with OUT losing the benefits I so direly need.
I just want to be safe and not have everything fall out from under me again........
I haven't posted much lately. There hasn't been much for me to update with on here, as I spent much of last year working on cosplay.
But now, stuff's come up, my depression has been kicking my ass for the last week, and now it's time to just. Do something about it. Something powerful. I'm getting help, but I need something I can work with *now*, not later.
Ergo, this. A breakdown of the card choices below. Of course, each person is unique and would need to decide for them what would work best for their situation and interpretation of the cards.
The Lock - reversed, so as to signify that it needs to be broken
The Light, the Dark, Libra - balance between the two. You can't enjoy the good times without the bad. You can't see the light without the dark to contrast
Bubbles, Glow - Cleaning, Hope. Uplifting and light to guide the way out of the dark, dark tunnel.
Big, Shot, Fight, Power, Sword, Illusion - the attack, the full frontal assault, the artillery, the heaviness to be combatted against.
The Big to power the front line
The Fight, The Power, The Shot, to fight against the Illusions and Lies holding me back. Accuracy, swiftness, efficacy.
The Sword, to cut quickly thru the bullshit.
The Illusion, reversed, to signify the lies and unwellness that my brain goes to, the depression that tells me everything is hopeless and nothing is worth living. Reversed to show that it has to go, to be broken.
I found this deck at a mall store that definitely did not seem like it would carry this kind of thing. I know this deck is supposed to be like sex dice, ie give people ideas for positions, but I've been toeing the line of working with Aphrodite/Venus, and the deck just CALLED out to me. Even more hilarious, is that I'm a sex-repulsed, single, cupioromo aroace, so having a sex positions deck is fricking hilarious to me. I didn't get it at first, but right after I left I had realized it's potential as a deck to dedicate/use primarily for communicating with this deity, so I resolved to buy it when I had finished my shopping. It was still there. I'm pretty sure it's the deck picked for the purpose of working with her.
I liked my look today, which was accidental, i mean i don’t always feel confident with this shirt actually on me but i really like its shoulder style. That choker is itchy tho.
Also, I am home from my walk and I feel so much better than before I left. Debating doing some sort of reading though that means clearing off my desk and putting paper in the printer and a bunch of other steps that lead up to doing readings with pip decks that I need to learn
First! I have a discord now!! If you want to add me or invite me into any groups, please feel free to let me know and we can exchange handles!! (I have a few groups saved in my drafts or in a tag somewhere on here...) I have a skype as well, but it’s a bit more clonky so far, and sometimes I forget to sign into it. :D;;;
Secondly, I am sorry for the increase of political posts on here. Well, no, not sorry in that I am sorry they are here, because this blog is a resource blog for me as well as a personal journey/experiences and connections blog, and because these are things that are affecting so many people, not limited to just my country’s citizens. But I AM going to utilize a tag for anything that I reblog to here now that falls under that category. The one that I imagine will be used the most is “#the rebellion”,, inspired by the name of one of @shelbymelissa‘s paid readings, as well as many other posts. I might also use “#the resistance”. The other tag for generic, non-”here’s how to fight against this” political posts, will just be tagged “#politics” or “#political”. [I actually can’t recall offhand right now which way I use it when tagging. Woops.]
Third! I am still working on readings and sending out witchy wishlist stuff!! I am SO SORRY that it’s taken so long, every time I think shit’s calmed down enough in my life to work on stuff that I want to, work calls me in for all of the extra hours, the apartment kitchen needs to be cleared out for a bug spray [which I later learn is ineffective, but I nevertheless still needed to clear it out to apply my own defenses], and then work again is back to everyone being so sick with so many different things that they actually manage to get even ME sick, so I’m just like. whyyyyy. I just want time off to manage and live my own life. that’s all. why is this so hard at a company that claims to be employee-driven/caring?! WHY.
I can’t really think of anything else that sounds important enough for a notice. just the first two, then i remembered the third thing. I guess I just want to add that I’m a little excited/can’t wait for the next #Card Coven meeting? [aka @tarotprose‘s rabbit chat.] I can’t recall if it was friday or saturday and what time tho, whoopsie. Even if I do, I might accidentally do something else thru that, so everyone should like, hit me up on all of my notifying accounts that I am MISSING OUT on the coolest, funnest, funniest thing that I have ever been to. IN YEARS.
I’m also on Steam and Twitter (personal account of the non-witchy/pagan/spiritual variety), and I got into the For Honor closed beta so I’ll be doing that these next few days that I FINALLY HAVE OFF!!!! But in the meantime, I’ll be playing Overwatch on the PC, so you can totally hit me up on battle.net. Feel free to ask me for any of my non-tumblr accounts if you want to contact or follow or talk or play with me outside of here!
Tarot community, you get a reading like this, wwyd?
Neither of them said anything for a moment. Finally, Sarah began putting cards down on the table, flipping them face up as they did. Their hands hovered and placed the cards in strange, unusual order, with some cards grouped together more than others, all while one card remained in the center.
“So, let's see.... We got... Death as the center card... And Tower over here on the left, Three of Swords... actually that's a LOT of swords at the base of that tower right there; I'm not even gonna try to go through each one of those, I think we get the idea. And on the way over to the center card, we've got .. Three of Pentacles reverse, but Two of Pents is upright.... Over here by the Moon we have the King of Cups reversed, Ten of Cups reversed right under it, like it was spilling from the king's upturned cup... which falls right into the Tower?”
Sarah frowned as the two of them looked at the table. A large group of cards basically were laid at the feet of the Tower, all of them sword cards of varying numbers. Right above it were the cup and Moon that they had mentioned. To the right of the Tower's pile, ascending upwards at an angle like a stone path were the two pentacle cards. And to the far right of the tower, away from everything that laid past it, was The Fool.
“And yet.... For some reason, I felt compelled to put some cards all the way over here. The Fool walks into the Ten of Wands, crossing over a sideways Three of Wands-- honestly, why did it feel wrong to not do that; this deck isn't even designed for sideways readings!-- and they meet a Magician, The High Priestess, and The Lovers, ALL REVERSED?? They come to the gate that is the 9 of Wands, wherein lies The Hermit in reverse, right next to Death.”
The more they read the placement of the cards they had put down, the more outlandish it sounded to them. Still, there was that little nudging in their mind that told them to put down two more cards, far above the rest of the ones she had put down. So far above, that they in fact were touching the edge of the table where Kaie sat, absorbed in shock, fear, and alarm at his friend's reading.
“And watching from above all this is... Judgment, and... The World, in reverse.”
Any gods that can hear me and listen, please help me with my home. I cannot give much as an offering, but I am becoming overwhelmed.
Please help me tidy this shit. I need assistance maintaining it, and cannot do that on my own. I am emotionally and/or mentally exhausted on an average day, sometimes even the good ones. To any who can hear me, please hear my plea and offer your assistance.
