I don't really know what to feel,
Doesn't seem to matter what I do,
I feel alone.
I can no longer tell what's fake or real,
I can't seem to call my mind my own.
I fell in love, but I think i'm still falling,
It's like I'm stuck in one place watching life happen,
And I don't have an audience applauding
I'm alone.
I hate this, I'm the only one clapping,
I don't have a fucking crowd cheering me on.
The people who got closest are all fucking gone.
I'm looking for the bright side,
But I'm leaning towards swan Songs.
I just want this feeling to leave, I hate always being wrong
I feel lowercase,
I feel pencil to pen,
can be erased,
I feel out of place,
My minds in outer space
Lovers looked me right in the face,
Then left like they'd get first in a race.
What's my worth?
Do I need to start running too?
Will I be last?