#puddlepondering

[puddleonthefloor]

What if i drew chosen every day till an avi on vrchat that i rlly want comes out?

I could draw chosen in a pretty pink princess dress/j

[laying-in-my-puddle]

I’ve been so busy all godamn day and my brain went from 10 to 0 now that I’m sitting here by myself in silence- you know what that means!

Rumination.

[laying-in-my-puddle]

Shit is getting too real I had to put on that fucking necklace

Feeling like a desperate and #weakassbitch

[laying-in-my-puddle]

Oh catholicism you can never make me form a solid opinion on you </3

[laying-in-my-puddle]

I feel like a bum ass chud but like- emotionally yk

[laying-in-my-puddle]

I wanna stay in this moment forever. I don’t wanna get up and do anything. I want to burrow myself in between the sheets and blankets and not know where the opening is. I want to drop out of everything. I don’t want commitments. I don’t want to be recognized by anything or anyone. I wish I could transcend and become something else. I feel behind in everything but yet I don’t make a move. For laziness or avoidance I don’t do it. I’ll stay stagnant. Even though my mind screams for change. I can’t.