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[merii-kahanii]

It's late. And I've been thinking. Which is never a good thing.

It's been over a year you would think that you would be over it by now but I guess not. I used to get offended by your shitty posts but now I just laugh because you still can't let go of the fact that someone might not love you back. I'm sorry though. Because after he screwed me over I get it hurts like hell. But I'm not gonna hate him for the rest of my life because he couldn't feel the way I did. I mean I never even hated him. And at this point in my life I don't even care. I thought holding on to someone for six months was bad. You've been holding on to the pain I caused you for a year and a half. Doesn't it get tiring? Oh well I mean I guess it's your problem. I shouldn't even be worried about people like you or her. I mean I can't get over the fact that she blocked me. I still don't know how someone can go from being one of my closest friends to despising me to the point that they have to run into a bathroom to avoid me. I wish she would have at least told me what I did? Like don't I deserve to know that much? I don't know why I'm thinking about this shit. It just sucks how many important people you can lose over the span of a year. And how drastically things can change. The worst was the last one where I felt so betrayed. And you know what I'm over it as well because I've become so used to this crap but I am really tempted to just sit down with all of you and ask why? I feel like I never got closure. I never understood why you would go out of your way to delete me, hurt me, betray me, lie to me, use me. Because I wouldn't have done it to any of you. And I know that yous know that. Or maybe I'm being dramatic and only thinking of it from my side. I mean I know I hurt you all as well. But I guess that's just human nature right? We consider our pain before we consider anyone else.