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A chibi drawing for Pride! This time including my HC for Idia. I HC him as Demi-Romantic and Pansexual! (These are just my HC's everyone is entitled to their own.)

I also wanna ramble about Idia and his perspective/relationship with love and romance in general.

In the ghost marriage event, we get glimpses into a couple characters' view of romance, what they want from a partner in the future, and just how they view love in a general sense.

Idia's outlook on romance and love is expectantly pretty negative. He claims he doesn't think 'eternal love' exists and looks down upon people who fall in love easily. Claiming that expressing strong emotions is embarrassing and that those feelings are just from "chemicals in your brain". To me, this teenage angst-fueled perspective is just a self-imposed defense mechanism to hide from the REAL issue. That issue is that frankly, Idia doesn't think he can be truly loved. He finds the idea that someone could see him for who he is and know about the things he’s done and still love him, to be an impossibility. And so he projects that outward onto others and his general world view. There’s also another layer that Idia does not think he is deserving of that love and by extension the happiness that comes with it. (Due to his past.)

Being happy is an impossibility for him so, by extension, so is loving someone romantically and being loved in return.

He’s definitely closed himself off in that regard and has come to a gloomy acceptance with it. 

But only for the most part.

 I think there's a part of Idia that really craves that intimate connection with a person. But he’s both too afraid to commit to a person and too self-conscious to show his full self. Plus even if he did fall in and love to commit to a person he would be condemning them to be a part of his cursed family and live that life with him. (Which he would view as the worst-case scenario for the person he loves, being trapped like he is.) So the very act of him loving someone and wanting to be with them is selfish in his eyes.

Overall, I think Idia could only fall in love with someone he makes a deep connection with, so friendship would definitely be the start of the relationship. Honestly, I think falling in love with someone would sneak up on him and he would be so hesitant to go forward with his feelings, even if it was mutual. His partner would have to have a delicate balance of patience and persistence, and maybe even take getting rejected a few times by him, before he gives in and lets himself be happy with this person in the moment. Though he would still always feel like it wasn’t going to last.

But beyond all the gloom and doom Idia wants someone to love him. He wants to have those cheesy date troupes and do all the cliches and be sappy with his partner. He wants to be so cringe about it and not even care because he's in love. And more than anything he just wants…a happy normal relationship. Something so simple as holding hands with his partner on a date seems like an impossibility, a dream, but he wants it…he’d never admit it though…and it won’t happen. So its easier just to say that “true lasting love” isn’t real...

...Right?

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Also Idia's shirt:

And Yume's outfit is based of this artwork!

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Thanks for the tag @the-trinket-witch for the original post here. characters that are very me coded:

I'll no pressure tag @bunnwich, @the27th,@ice-cweam-sod4, @twst-the-night-away,@twstinginthewind,@evilcokito, @vaporvipermedia, @oseathepebble, @cyn-write

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Personal Life Update:

Guess what! Ya boy got a job! I started today, that's why I haven't been as active lately. It will probably take time for me to settle in and balance my work and play, but I'll still be active on this blog. Just maybe a little slower churning out content and replying to things!

Thanks for reading!

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Leave me a holiday message on my Tree!

내 트리를 꾸며줘!

트리를 꾸미고 따뜻한 마음을 나눠요💝

I had lots of fun with this last year! I'd love to do it again and leave messages on others trees as well!

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⭐ For Yume! ⭐

1- 4- and 20!

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Do you have a song that represents your OC, if so why?

I have SEVERAL songs that represent Yume. Last time I answered a song in this post, that made me think of Yume's overall time in Twisted Wonderland. (It's a sorta long post with analysis.) And @bunnwich has said that "Waiting on a Miracle" from Encanto reminds them of Yume. Most recently the song that represents Yume for me is. Camera's by Matt and Kim.

"No time for cameras We'll use our eyes instead No time for cameras We'll be gone when we're dead No time for cameras We'll use our eyes instead I see flashes of gold."

I love the idea of Yume slowly coming out of their shell and learning that they need to be more than just a spectator in life if they wanna be happy not only in the future but now as well! 0v0

Honestly, I should just drop and Yume Ume Playlist. (And my cheez whiz Yume x Idia playlist too)

Who is your OC’s closest platonic friend?

I know I KNOW I DONT TALK ABOUT IT MUCH!

But Ruggie and Yume are besties y'all! They don't really know how it happened either considering Yume disliked his smug aura and hates when people steal from them specifically. And Ruggie can smell a goodie too shoes a mile away. Of course, that's just the surface-level projection of both of them.

Once they get to know each other in and after chapter 2 they both see past that and realize they have things in common and of course a dumb similar taste in humor.

Add that to the fact that Yuuta and Leona "hang out" and also Jack and Yuuhi "hang out", and it leaves Yume and Ruggie as the platonic 3rd wheels. So they kinda just gravitate toward each other during those times too. Don't get them wrong, Grim, Deuce, and Ace were their first friends and hold a special place in their heart. But I think they get along with Ruggie on a very visceral level that they didn't expect lol. Reminds me of this OLD but still good meme:

Tell us about a complicated relationship your OC has with another character?

Last time with this question I talked about Yume's relationship with Jamil! So this time let me talk about Yume's relationship with KALIM!

Oh boy where to start. Yume didn't officially meet Kalim until chapter 4 and was very skeptical meet a genuinely kind person at NRC, especially after getting betrayed by Azul. So when Kalim is just genuinely nice and kind it kinda threw them for a loop. And then he started talking and saying nice things ABOUT Yume. Compliments they've never heard from anyone before! Plus the fact that he was so touchy (in a good way! Yume enjoys casual affection)

And the whole flying carpet under the stars didn't help (even with their brothers with them the whole time.)

So yeah it kinda developed into a big time crush, unfortunately. Though after going through the events of chapter 4 they realize that Jamil and Kalim have their own things to work through and that maybe trying to get into a relationship with Kalim...isn't right at the moment. (Plus all their fear of rejection/vulnerability/ and inexperience when it comes to dating in general. Oh, and not to mention the feelings they're definitely not catching from some shut-in gamer boy too.) Still they don't really shake their crush completely until I'd say the near end of my fic The Diamond in the Rough and the Boy without a Fairy. (Which takes place between chapters 4 and 5 in game)

Though they still find things awkward around Kalim so that leads to them just kind of...avoiding him for a while. It's a lil shitty on their part but eventually Kalim notices and they both officially have a talk of sorts that clears the air in Chapter 5 (during the VDC training camp.) I do plan on writing it one day but right now I'm in the middle of writing other lore!

What are your OC’s minor fears?

SPIDERS, TALKING TO STRANGERS, TALKING ON THE PHONE. HEIGHTS, ADVANCED DARKNESS! FLOYD LURKING IN THE CORNER WITH THAT LOOK ON HIS FACE! (the usual) 20. What chapter does your OC get the most personal character development? @cyn-write asked this question too!

Definitely Chapter 3! I feel like in me and @bunnwich timeline so many things happen around that time.

The Ramshackle gang getting to know their respective love interests, Yuuta/Yuuhi getting their respective weapons, Yume snapping and going a little insane on how to plan and get back at Azul and showing that they're not just a shy goody goody. It just is a time when the brothers are starting to really feel like they understand and belong in Twisted Wonderland to a degree y'know?

ANYWAY SORRY THIS GOT SONG LONG! The muses possessed me.

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Life Update:

You guys may have noticed I haven't been as active lately, besides the new job my mother has also been in the hospital for the past few days, and my family and I have been dealing with that. Thanks to everyone who is still supporting me and a big welcome to some new followers! I'll be more active when life settles down and gives me a break.

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ART RAFFLE WINNER!

Thank you to everyone who participated in my art raffle! I appreciate each and everyone one of you! But at the end of the day, there can be only one winner! And that is....

@heartsomnia Congrats to them!

Thank you so much, everyone. I look forward to doing this again in the future!