The blame is always on me why my mothers and I relationship is shit. So not hugging me for months after I came out that I was a lesbian was ok?! Real motherly move. When I had a girlfriend in brick nj Cheyenna and loved spending time with her and we got into one simple fight about something I can’t even remember dragging me by a truck was ok?! Real motherly move. When I didn’t wanna eat meat loaf “every time you’re mad at me you make meat loaf” but shoving my face in it was ok? And having it burn my face ok?! Real motherly move. Support my cigarette habit was ok too! From the age of 15!!!! Throwing out all my clothes I felt comfortable and forcing me to learn to wear jeans and be like everyone else was ok?! Cutting a hole in my head cause I wanted a Mohawk was ok?! Chasing me with duck tape cause I refused to shave my face cause I have pcos and just have more manly features is my issue. Right?! Calling me names left and right. Telling me that being a lesbian is disgusting is my fault. Not liking any girl I’ve ever brought home and always finding a flaw in them and convincing me to leave them even tho I’ve loved some of them very deeply. You’re the one that won’t accept our relationship as mother and daughter. Don’t put all the blame on me because you think it’s all my fault, you’ve done just as much as wrong. And I’m told to get over all these things? ACCEPT ME AND MAYBE I WILL ACCEPT ME THAT IM NOT PERFECT ACCEPT ME THAT IM A LIVING BREATHING HUMAN. You don’t go to heaven for pretending to love. And you sure as hell won’t be going to heaven if you hold grudges. You tell me to get over all these things, but yet I’ve done something so wrong that you can’t get the flying fuck over it. I’m still in you life I still ask for hugs even tho we bitch moan and argue at each other, I’m doing my very best to love you, one day mom you asked me “you think our relationship would be better if you didn’t have a mental illness?!” I think we’d have no relationship at all especially if I was what you think is normal cause it takes a special type of idiot to put up with your hurtful shit you’ve put me through.
#gay #reallife #hatedbyblood
