Day 1 to fulfillment
I was unhappy for several months and I couldn’t pin point why all of my efforts and sacrifices weren’t being equated to my own joy. But then I remembered something my sister always told me... “obedience is better than sacrifice.” When we choose to let go of the sacrifices we are making in order to align with our own plan - we are not being obedient to the word of God. I know my worth and I know that I deserve the same amount that I give, if not more. Thinking in retrospect, I sacrificed my own joy because I felt that my plans for my life were better than what God had in store for me.
I was not receiving what I wanted at all. Someone to be fully willing and able to provide me with the love every woman deserves. It was like two puzzle pieces that were not fitting together but hopelessly trying to force that fit. Efforts were given at different times. Challenges seemed like they were meant to overcome (to me) but not to another. I gave and gave and gave instead of sitting and being still and allowing God to do what he does best. In result of my submission to Him, I chose to seek isolation to place myself in a position to hear what it is that He wants for and from me.
What has given me peace today:
John Gray - The Purpose behind the pain
“Pain will leave when it is done teaching you.”
“To seek to avoid pain is to avoid growth.”
“The discomfort you feel with pain is God growing you.”
“Don’t miss provision because you aren’t where you're supposed to be.”
“God doesn’t waste pain, pain is not punishment and God is still worthy to be praised.”
“Sometimes pain is directing you to be where you need to be for God to give you what he has, with your name on it!”
“God doesn’t send pain but he utilizes pain to produce something in you - to outlast you.”
“God will send you what you need where he expects you to be.”