(another) Personal Bullshit Update
Hi everyone, it's been a few weeks since my last personal update.
To start off, Dad and I had a wonderful time during the holidays. I think I want to move where he is. People are so nice, there's so much to do, AND none of my mother's drama.
Speaking of her, she and her punk bf are still together (how, I'll never know). But Mom has FINALLY stopped forcing me to interact with him and his friends.
The reason is very drastic. She didn't understand what I was afraid of until it nearly happened,
I was with them at her bf's apartment one weekend, this was right before my trip with my Dad.
We all went to the mall, went back to his place with his friends, I "entertained" with my guitar, even though I didn't want to, and eventually, they all dispersed so I could sleep. It was good, until 6:30 am when I woke up to one of his friends. In. The. Bed. With me. He was obviously still drunk. I was stunned. He....stuck his hand down my pants. I freaked out and rolled myself up in the comforter to keep him from doing anything else. He just "cuddled" me up and wouldn't leave. After a minute, I sat up and pointed across the room. Fortunately, he knew better and obeyed. I told him " Baño o veite" meaning, Bathroom or leave.
After he went to the other side of the room, (didn't leave yet). I texted my Mom because I had no idea where she was. I called her 7 times and even called her bf. They left their phones in the room so they could get "busy" in the very next room. When they finally came out, Mom was shocked to see me. I was scared, furious and hurt. I told her what happened and she told me to wait for her in the bathroom. I went and she came a couple minutes later and asked what happened. I told her and she had murder in her eyes. Her bf told his friend to leave and if he wasn't at his car by the time Mom reached him, she was gonna go to jail for murder. Well, the guy left before Mom could reach him. She didn't tell her bf what happened until the next day when we went home and he went with us. I wanted to tell the other family members because I needed the support and my mother said, "Don't. Do you want everyone knowing this about you?" She was more worried about her bf and his friends getting picked up by cops because not all of them are legal. I was so hurt and I've hated her even more since then. Without her knowledge, I told my Aunt first. She was livid once I gave her the full story. She wanted to kill the guy and beat up my mother for putting me in that position despite me voicing my concerns. I told her not to, that it would make things worse. Later, when Dad came up to pick me up, I told him before we left and he was PISSED. Mostly at my mother.
During my trip, Mom texted me saying that the same guy got arrested at another girl's house. He's gonna spend 1-2 years in jail then possibly get deported. I was so happy, and so were my Dad and Aunt. But I haven't trusted Mom or any of her bf's friends after that. And she's FINALLYZ learned. I just wish she would've listened to me without all of that happening.
On a lighter note, I'm talking to someone. Let's call him "H". We met over FB and we've been talking nearly every day. He's pretty cool and we have good talks. So far, he's the only one who is actually truthful about being okay to take it slow. I'm not expecting anything too big from this but I hope it works out for me and him.
As for work, I'm doing great. I feel so appreciated and valued. I still get VERY tired because of the graveyard shift and it's cold as shit here recently, and now I'm fighting a chest bug (mostly a cough that comes and goes).
I know that most won't spare a glance at this post but I just feel like I need to get these things out of my head, and talking to the same people doesn't always help me because I feel like I'm burdening them constantly, which makes me feel worse.
Either way, you don't have to like or reblog this, just a comment or acknowledgement would be more than enough.
Hope you all have a good day/night
