Sep 19, 2022
i am lucky, even now.
given how much risk i let loose, i am still here. with greater expenditures. but still lucky. so many times where i could have ended or ended another, and yet i’m still here. unscathed. faced with two polite and kind individuals who have suffered from my mistakes. i want this to humble me, not embolden. learn, not give myself an excuse to continue shite traits.
quick and easy pleasures abound. a rush of dopamine.
but no more, i hope. i yearn for simplicity. a clear mind. good sleep. good shifts. i don’t need moments of clarity born out of guilt for being under.
anyway, here’s a photo of my 2 homies out here with my potentially RIP car.