#qdork

[matogrice]

jenny  🔜 BIC fest‏ @q_dork

[genderhexed]

If people are initially attracted to your blog by your social life then surely they should stay for the social issues irregardless of their personal beliefs. I happen to agree with you on all of the issues, however I would not unfollow you if I didn't. The betterment of humankind comes from challenging peoples prejudices rather than segregating yourself from them. After all, you have a considerable influence over many people whether you like it or not. Said people are less ignorant thanks to u.

I'm aware that it's important to challenge prejudices and many people have told me that they've become more open minded and aware of issues because of the things I post and reblog and that's great. But that doesn't mean I have no right to desire some measure of comfort with the people following me. And gaining 300 followers (and counting) over the span of two days means there are GOING to be people in that mix who are going to end up sending me shitty messages, being judgmental of my life, and refusing to challenge their own ignorance and therefore becoming offended by the opinions and things that I post. 

I am /this close/ to remaking my blog and starting all over because I am so anxious over the idea that this place that has always been so helpful and important to me is now full of people who can potentially hurt me. I am vulnerable and open on this blog and always have been, and now I feel like I have a room full of strangers watching everything I do and with every jump in follower count I feel like I have less freedom to post the things that have made treesong really great and special to me. 

And I already have a personal blog for the really intimate stuff? but it's still important to me to share stuff like my mental health issues and post-trauma and my gender with a wide audience too because I know how helpful it's been for a lot of people to read. BUT NOT THIS WIDE AN AUDIENCE. not one that's grown so quickly. not one who hasn't been here for the past 3 years of this blog through my ups and downs and fandom obsessions and friendships and just all this history.

this stupid blog, which in a lot of ways is like my home, feels like it has a floodlight on it and suddenly there's a lot of people looking in my windows and wandering through my kitchen and bedroom and I have no way of knowing which ones are going to be sweet and loving and respectful like so many of my followers have been over the years and which ones are going to take pictures of me in my underwear and hurl insults at me.

I know the ratio of decent people is going to be a lot higher than the ratio of potentially shitty or ignorant people, but it's still scary, and I don't like it.

[fuckyeahmst3k]

Could you recommend a MST3K episode to watch tonight?

#0414 - Tormented