#qtpoc selfie

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the caption says it all tbh

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hewwo im saleh scream to me abt boys or something

he/him/himself

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That red light hit me right.

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Happening right now.

Currently crying into a glass of wine with Murder She Wrote playing in the background.

Why? Because my New Year's Resolution for 2k14 was to take more selfies. 

So I went through my phone and my posts on here and I'm just looking at them all and remembering everything about this year.

January through March was easily the worst three months of life thus far. My depression had returned stronger and more overwhelming than it had been in over almost a decade. I felt belittled, betrayed and bruised internally. 

Now it's December and I feel like a different person. 

I have dreams again. I love my body again (for the most part). I'm taking action and I'm finding my voice.

I set out last year around this time to take more selfies. Everyone was doing collages with 6 or sometimes 12 of their favorite selfies. 

I couldn't. I hadn't taken more than 5 pictures of myself in the entire year of 2013. So I vowed to love myself. Be better to myself. Do better for myself.

And I did. 

I still battle with depression on a daily. But now I'm not ashamed to say, "Here's my face and no I'm not having a good mental health day."

I'm not ashamed of my face. Sure I don't like my face 100% of the time, 24/7/365. But I don't hate it and the relief of that is just....

Amazing.