#queer-and-nerdy

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george karim: i don’t have a resting bitch face because this bitch never rests

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I love your icon!

AND I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[queer-and-nerdy]

these spot the difference games keep getting harder and harder

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all 4 feet 9 inches of terzo saw omega “Mega Man” ghoul and decided “that’s the one i want” and you know what good for them love is love

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era v ghoul textposts

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damn swiss 😭😭😭 leave some bitches for the rest of us dear god

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mind and heart are filled with thoughts of primo and secondo and terzo and copia... just like... them... like how they all internalized nihil's shit parenting...........

like how primo had to raise his brothers by himself because they deserved to have a loving childhood even if he didn't have one. like how he willingly took on all the responsibilities of raising a very young terzo and infant copia while dealing with a teenage/young adult secondo. like how he had to parent them from afar while he was touring, sometimes even bringing terzo and copia to be left in the care of a stage ghoul. like how he gave up his best years to single-handedly take care of them with little to no recognition. like how he attended every one of secondo and terzo’s performances during their papacy. like how he loved how strong and protective secondo became, yet hated his harshness and unkindness. like how he loved terzo's flamboyant and optimistic personality, yet hated how insecure it made him. like how he loved copia's dedication and tenacity, yet hated his fear of the world.

like how secondo only saw how much nihil looked down on him. like how he became bitter and miserable because he only focused on how little nihil loved him rather than how much primo loved him. like how he grew to hate and resent terzo because he could see how primo loved his younger brother but couldn't see that same love directed at himself since he thought he wasn't earning/deserving of it. like how he hated primo's touring and refused to join him because he'd rather choose to be alone than forced to be. like how he hated the idea of being ignored and passed off. like how secondo loved all of his brothers but didn't know how to show it because he was blinded by nihil's dislike. like how one time he lashed out at terzo, who then compared him to nihil and he "realized" just how much like his father he was, making him become colder to his brothers in order to "protect" them from his "bad genes." like how he was too afraid to commit to any relationships, platonic or romantic, because he thought he'd end up like nihil. like how he refused to have any children because he saw what it did to primo. like how proud he was of terzo's ascension/descension to papa but was too afraid to show it. like how he always defended and protected his brothers but didn't know how to truly show them the love they deserved.

like how terzo rarely batted an eye at nihil's dismissal because he knew he had primo's unconditional love and support. like how he felt the extremes of primo's selfless love and secondo's bitter resentment. like how the only reason he lasted as papa as long as he did was because primo and secondo stepped in to protect him from nihil. like how he grew up (and died) thinking that secondo hated him but never knew why. like how he always tried to be the perfect son for primo but had no idea what a "perfect" son would look like. like how he tried to dim his personality growing up so that primo would have less of "him" to worry about. like how insecure he was of himself because he was judged and ignored more often than not by those outside of his family circle.

like how copia loved all of his brothers since they were the only healthy family he had. like how the large age difference between him and primo (and secondo's lack of interest in raising a child) led him to lean on his mother and terzo more, which drove him apart from the older brothers. like how after primo, secondo, and terzo's deaths he received the full force of nihil's distaste after a lifetime of being shielded from it. like how he tries to channel his older brothers while performing but feels he can never live up to their standards. like how he clings onto his ghouls because they are the only family he has left. like how he tells them bedtime stories about his brothers and how much they cared and loved.

anywho.

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i just want someone to love me in a sleep token way is that too much to ask for