queer-and-nerdy

aaron | 20 | they/he/she | bi, genderfluid | pisces | audhd | formerly @psychoticfangirl101 | current ghost hyperfixation

[queer-and-nerdy]

so here’s me ig ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

𖤐 the name’s aaron! my preferred pronouns are they/them and he/him, but honestly any are fine :)

𖤐 bisexual; genderfluid/genderqueer

𖤐 ♓︎ pisces sun, ♍︎ scorpio moon, ♐︎ sagittarius rising

𖤐 19 years old; current college student (secondary english education major lol)

𖤐 adhd, anxiety, and depression diagnosis; peer-diagnosed autism

𖤐 recovering victim of superwholock </3

𖤐 hot topic/spirit halloween/spencer’s frequenter

𖤐 fanfic writer!! i post on ao3 but link them on this page :P

𖤐 cat stepdad

𖤐 emo

𖤐 neil gaiman is my writer father

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𖤐 favorite media: good omens (aziraphale kinnie; aziracrow shipper), the sandman (dream/morpheus, matthew kinnie; dreamling shipper; hob gadling, death lover), our flag means death (stede kinnie; blackbonnet, lucius/black pete shipper; badminton hater), the boys (hughie kinnie; homelander hater), supernatural (dean winchester kinnie; destiel shipper; cas lover; he/they pansexual sam truther); gravity falls (dipper kinnie); marvel (loki, bucky barnes, peter parker, scott lang kinnie; lokius, mj/peter, venom/eddie shipper; stephen strange, mobius m. mobius lover), the witcher (jaskier kinnie; casual geraskier shipper; yennefer lover), star trek (spock, scottie kinnie; spirk shipper; bones lover), dead poet society (todd kinnie; anderperry shipper), detroit: become human (connor kinnie; hank lover; father!hank & son!connor truther - NOT SHIPPING), lockwood & co (george karim kinnie; locklyle shipper; barnes lover); warrior nun (lilith kinnie; avatrice shipper; mother superion, jillian salvius, camilla lover)

𖤐 favorite music: ghost (prequelle lover; copia, aether kinnie; terzomega, aether/dewdrop|sodo, polyghoul shipper; terzo, cumulus, cirrus lover), sleep token, ice nine kills, avatar, system of a down, metallica, slipknot, lorna shore, repugnant ❄︎ hozier, bo burnham, anson seabra, gordon lightfoot, billie eilish, marina

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my ao3 fic masterlist lolol (will be updated as i post!)

𖤐 the band ghost 𖤐

our skin is the canvas (will you be the paint?)

papa emeritus III | terzo / omega | quintessence ghoul 1349 words | 1/1 chapters | complete --------------------------- While removing his ritual paint, Terzo is struck by how much he resembles Nihil, which causes him to break down. Fortunately, Omega is there to pick up the pieces (and open Terzo’s eyes).

two star-crossed lovers reaching out (to the beast with many names)

papa emeritus | terzo / omega | quintessence ghoul 5682 words | 2/2 chapters | complete --------------------------- Omega is a liability to the Ghost Project. He must be removed.

fourth of july

aether | quintessence ghoul / sodo | fire ghoul (dewdrop | water ghoul) 4804 words | 1/1 chapters | complete MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH --------------------------- Sodo has a chance to say goodbye.

all those things that you desire (you will find there in the fire)

papa emeritus | terzo / omega | quintessence ghoul 2953+ words | 1/3 chapters | in progress GRAPHIC DEPICTIONS OF VIOLENCE | MAJOR CHARACTER DEATH --------------------------- What if omega had been in terzo's place at game night?

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mutuals, reblogs, comments, asks, etc. are welcome!!! i can be nervous meeting new people but i’m trying to get better lol ♡︎

[bonncy]

photocards of the demon cats

[methuselah87]

The band Ghost is so fucking funny to me. Their frontman currently looks like this:

Or some version of a horny goth clown, but the guy underneath it has got the wettest saddest eyes I've ever seen. Just look at him:

This man admits to being very sensitive and cries at the drop of a hat.

He has a wife and kids.

He wears the costume because he doesn't like the way he looks on stage as a rockstar.

He treats the audience like his children. They're officially called the children of Ghost for that and also because of the play on "children of god."

The band literally fucks around on stage while riffing this badass music. They go through physical comedy skits every concert like the three stooges. For example:

Two demons throw guitar picks at each other when they get angy.

One guy grinds and licks the stage like a cat in heat.

One of them shakes their tits at goth clown man and scares him shitless.

One of them twirls goth clown man like a ballerina as he dances by them.

Several of them slap goth clown's ass when he waddles by.

He created the band to make people happy, to celebrate being a fucking weirdo because he always felt left out, and to make fun of Christianity because it makes people feel bad. He lost his older brother, and it tore him up so bad that the music he made as a result launched him into a worldwide music career.

This man ends every concert "ritual" with three things:

1. Be nice to each other

2. Help each other

3. Go fuck yourself

(Literally and figuratively)

Their music is 70% "fuck me I'm so horny", 10% "I love you so much" and 20% "ethereal badass metal".

Look at how much fun he's having, dude.

It's literally just a rock band filled with the nicest people on earth wearing costumes like a Shakespearean play. And all they do is make up funny little lore stories and serve cunt.

[chapel-of-rizztual]

Copia and Phantom

[queer-and-nerdy]

as a blue ridge rock festival 2023 survivor i’m imagining l&co going to a rock/metal festival and it’s CARNAGE right (this is based on my experience with festivals in the u.s. i’ve never been to any in europe LMAO) also obligatory @wellgoslowly tag <3

the three of them go for all 4 days with on-site camping but they decide to share a single tent because “it’ll be cheaper and we already live together so how bad can it be?” BAD VERY BAD. fortunately, the weather was good but lucy forgot to take into account how much she and george snack when they get stressed. her and george take turns driving to and from the festival (lockwood is a registered passenger princess i love him but also don't trust him behind the wheel), but lucy is the one to park in the campground as george made several domestic and international terror threats if he had to pull into "that shitshow of a lot, are you mad?? who's idea was this, anyways? not mine, that's for sure. park the damn car without killing us, please and thank you." their three sleeping bags barely fit the floor of the tent, so the first night they spend practically curled up together. george, unable to handle the sheer amount of LocklyleTM, decides to sleep in the car for the rest of the weekend. lucy and lockwood try to sleep in an inconspicuous/non-awkward way, but somehow find themselves tangled up in each other's arms. neither of them comment on this, but they also don't separate right away (they make me sick). they all wear matching noise-muffling headphones that lucy made for them (lucy's hearing is already somewhat impaired and she takes care of her body; george bitches about his hearing being fine despite staying close enough to be able to touch the stage for every set he attends and complaining about a "weird ringing noise" constantly; lockwood never takes his off, even sleeping with them on - lucy drew little hearts on his). the three of them also spent the week leading up to the festivals making kandi bracelets to hand out, which earns them some friends they keep for years.

lockwood (the masochist that he is) has the time of his life all weekend. he’s thriving on the loud music and shitty overpriced food. he desperately wants to mosh but doesn’t realize that you don’t really have to ask to join, and his first few attempts just result in him either acting as a wall or getting pushed out of the way entirely. once he finally pushes his way into a decent-sized pit, he instantly gets sucker punched and george has to take him to the first aid tent (they give him a small bottle of water and tell him to “take it easy”). he doesn't sing along for any sets he attends, instead enjoying hearing the combination of the band and the audience. he stays on the festival grounds from first set to last, and when he returns to the campsite he spends several more hours chatting with their neighbors. he loves discovering new bands and genres despite how picky he is and gets along great with the people he stands around (except the person that kept talking shit about metallica). music is a great escape for him and helps him pass the time in his everyday life. it acts as a grounding force in his life, and something about the heavy bass provided by the live music gives him a sense of reality. despite his increasing lack of sleep each night he somehow is more energized each day. this baffles lucy and george, who are running on the fumes of fumes. hypothetically his positive attitude would make him an ideal tentmate, except for the unfortunate fact that not only are the showers largely inaccessible but he gets it into his head that “there aren’t showers in the wild; therefore, i don’t need to take any.” lucy and george set him straight the second night with some not so thinly veiled threats.

lucy is the one to suggest the festival as a “much needed vacation.” she is also the first to regret actually following through on it. she spends the hottest parts of the day in the shade of their campsite, usually only showing up for the headliners at the end of the night as well as some smaller bands she researched ahead of time. although george teases her for "hiding," she ends up being the only one to make it out without any medical issues or injuries. she makes sure to pack the right amount of food for the three of them as well as budgeting for festival food but she would rather die than pay $13 for a slice of pizza. she designates herself as the merch martyr, standing in line for two hours to get the three of them anything and everything they could afford (one shirt each and a magnet for their kitchen). however much she complains, though, she fully enjoys herself the whole time. she allows herself the freedom to relax in what would otherwise be a stressful environment for her, and she makes a few good friends. like lockwood, music is an escape for her, but instead of giving her a sense of reality, she finds it gives her an outlet to be someone she usually isn't. in a large crowd, with no one's eyes on her and any internal thoughts muffled by the loud music, she can let go and lose herself to the experience. she doesn't mosh but instead stands to the side and observes the moshers and crowd surfers. she becomes so wrapped up in the performances that, despite knowing all of the songs, often doesn't sing along.

george, like myself, has a myriad of health conditions, so the fact that he survived the entire weekend is surprising enough. lucy enlists lockwood's help to hold a gun to george's head to force him to take his binder off periodically. he hasn't had a drop of water in months and certainly isn't planning on starting now, which frustrates lucy to no end. the only compromise he makes is purchasing a case of gatorade, which he chugs half of and promptly vomits up all within the first day. he isn't a huge fan of moshing but he gets dragged into a few energetic ones and finds himself having fun. although he, like lucy, researched and planned ahead on who he wanted to see, he prefers to spend most of the day wandering around the grounds and sitting in on groups he didn't know if he has the time. for the groups he plans for, however, he's a bit of a scary fan. he knows all the lyrics, the band members' names, details of their careers, etc. he knows the setlist ahead of time even though he could sing each all of their songs perfectly from memory and excitedly tells the people around him what song was coming next. he starts arguments with a few people on the subgenres of metal, but also manages to get a cute guy's contact info after crossing each other's paths at a few different sets. to him, music is the only way he feels understood. he often doesn't know how to verbally explain his feelings, and there's something about music that he finds accesses deep within him. he passes out three times during the first day (lucy was there for the third one and exploded when he told her about the other two) but manages to only pass out one more time over the rest of the weekend.

skull is forced to stay home by himself despite insisting on being taken along [he will remember this]. the magnet lucy gets, however, satisfies him.

[synf3ll-moved]

take figures out of their boxes btw. sew patches on your favorite jacket. go to bed with your favorite plushes. wear the pants you usually save for special occasions. draw something cool on your wall. put a sticker on your laptop. dye your hair and pierce your lips. glass is meant to break, metal is meant to rust. items are meant to be used. that's how the world knows that somebody loved them.

[queer-and-nerdy]

NO WAY EPITOME OF DARKNESS WAS TAKEN OFF OF SPOTIFY THIS IS DEVASTATING IM GONNA FUCKING RIOT

[queer-and-nerdy]

how did i go three months without eod anyways GO LISTEN TO REPUGNANT thank you

[queer-and-nerdy]

i just want someone to love me in a sleep token way is that too much to ask for

[linecoveredinjellyfish]

i love you secondhand books i love you paperbacks i love you public libraries i love you school libraries i love you little free libraries i love you audiobooks i love you librivox i love you libby i love you ebooks i love you pdfs i love you internet archive i love you public domain i love you free and cheap and imperfect books i love you widely accessible resources

[chapel-of-rizztual]

Terzo really looked at him and said i want to bare his children. And he was so correct for that.

[chapel-of-rizztual]

God I miss them so much

[ghostsseeghosts]

Halloween costumes pt 1: Swissrora as Barbie and Ken from the Barbie movie

(I hope I can continue and finish this little series before Halloween 🥲)

[queer-and-nerdy]

low quality popia + ghoul pics dropping soon thanks to my shitty camera

[queer-and-nerdy]

me when i lied out of my ass i haven’t been able to rewatch my recordings without crying. sometime soon tho i swear

[queer-and-nerdy]

there are two wolves inside of you. one says that ghost is metal. the other says that ghost isn’t metal. both of these wolves are boys. they are kissing. they are gay wolves.

[birbwell]

three papas and a cardinal

[bookwyrminspiration]

every time I think about my gender I get confused so I simply stopped thinking about it. it is not my problem

[bookwyrminspiration]

actually it’s for more than my gender

[tw-5]

[sillyguy-supreme]

[callas-pancake-tree]

[wellgoslowly]

pov: aaron reads a sad lco fic i wrote at 2am

@queer-and-nerdy

[queer-and-nerdy]

RUINED MY DAY FR (incredible writing wuv u linnie)