Jun 4, 2020
i always answer questions in conversation but forget to ask one back and this is why i cannot hold a conversation because my bitch ass is like
them: how are you?
me: good!
them: [clearly waiting for me to ask them back]
me: [wondering if we have any cheesecake in the freezer, wow this silence is awkward...]
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me two hours later: I DIDN’T ASK HOW THEY WERE BACK
i would like to apologise to every single person i’ve done this to and every single person i WILL do this to in the future. i would LIKE to carry on having a conversation with you and i WANT to know how you are and everything but i...forget questioning exists...
#alternatively#them: [waiting for me to ask them back]#me: [wondering how i could possibly continue on this conversation now however do i move it forward-]#QUESTIONS.#LINDSEY.#QUESTIONING EXISTS.#ASK THEM BACK#or#sometimes i'm like haha what are they going to ask next!#NOTHING#IT'S YOUR TURN TO SPEAK#THIS ISN'T AN INTERVIEW IT'S A CONVERSATION#whenever i do consciously go ask them questions ask them questions ask them questions-#i basically analyse what they say and draw a question out of it without REALLY listening to what they're saying and i-#THAT ISN'T GOOD EITHER#and yes i could simply continue on the conversation via talking sometimes bc we chatting#but i'm god awful at that too#some people hear you say something and go yes i know what to say next#i hear people say something and go hol' up i need 10 seconds for processing and then i will smile because i need another 2 minutes for#response-#man what's it like being able to converse