you turn me into somebody loved
thank y'all so so so very much for the past year. i'm sure most of you already know how much you mean to me, but for the first time, or the billionth, i'm saying it again. you mean the world to me, and thank you thank you thank you a million times.
first off, ava
thank you so much for everything. i know we don't always get a long the best, but with our breakups, there's always the getting back together. thank you for coming back after that horrible time in may, and thank you for that amazing trip to china, thank you for putting up with me, for putting me back together, for being there to just listen, for being the amazing person you are. you're really my sister and i still can't believe it's only been a little over two years, because sometimes i feel like i've known you so much longer. you're amazing and wonderful and brilliant, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise.
sarah,
i just can't even fathom how much you cause the stars to come out at night. thank you for making me see the brighter side of things, for noticing the little things that change the big picture into something that matters, for being that first sip of tea that you can feel disperse through you body that seems to calm down all the stress in your heart. i honestly would not be here today without you. sometimes it's like you're the only one who notices to ask what's wrong, and i really need to be a better friend to you, because i really don't deserve you, and i'm sorry for being the crappy friend that i am. you deserve to be happy, s, you deserve flowers to look up smiling at you, for all the city lights to align into one glorious spectrum of colors, for the ocean to rise with each inhale and fall with each exhale. you deserve so much more, and you can be happy, i really do. you can be lovely and exuberant and happy, just put your mind to it. don't let anything sad hold you down, because they're just rocks that someone carries around and weighs them down until they decide to let go. you deserve the best, s. you deserve happy
quincy
i miss you so much. it's just unreal thinking how far you are, how much of a different world you live in, but somehow, at the same time, you're right here. you're here at the touch of a finger. anyways, thank you for our childhood, for our almost fort, for our days catching butterflies, for all of it. i always knew at some point you'd have to grow up, but then, it just felt like it would last forever. now, we're still not quite grown up, but pretty close. i didn't think things would change so much without you, it's like when you were home things were so normal, and now it's just haywire. thank you for being so you, so someone that no one can ever replace, someone that no one can ever replicate. thank you for making home home, for making everything so much more wonderfully interesting, for doing things that i thought no one would ever dare to do. and i know we weren't always that super close, but i hope you know that happy is so close to you. but quincy, thank you for childhood, for normality, for individuality.
ms. stacey cler,
you are legitimately the sweetest, most kind hearted, ebullient person that i have ever met. it was an honor to be in you class, and i've never learned so much in such a short amount of time. you're really changed my life for the better. thank you so much for seeing the potential in me, especially when it seemed like no one else did. thank you so much for all your words, your advice, your words of wisdom. sometimes it's like no one cares enough to intervene like you do, and it's so refreshing to hear exactly what i need to change. it's refreshing to have someone agree with me, instead of constantly telling me i'm wrong. thank you so much for putting my faith back in humanity, even though all world literature ends in death, but thank you for helping me choose the brighter side of life. thank you for motivating me to write, even though i really need to more. thank you for believing in my writing like no one ever has before. you've honestly changed my life like no one ever has before. thank you thank you thank you
edward,
thank you for that very first day of summer school when you said hello. that hello led to so many different future that i would have never even dreamed of the day before. it got me to change schools, change my world, and just change so many things. thank you for getting me to open up, to not be so afraid of the world. thank you for getting me to 'participate' because believe me, it's not much but still a lot more than before. thanks for our conversations, for our memories, for changing my future.
philip,
you're just the most wonderfully bubbly person i could ever meet, so thank you. whenever i get to see you, it makes me so happy by contact. it's like your happiness just overflows to everyone around. thank you for always making me feel better. i'm honestly so much better when i'm near you because it's just impossible not to. thank you for putting up with me for so long and putting up with all my emotions and bipolarness and antisocialness and thank you thank you thank you. and i probably don't mean as much to you and you do to me, but i hope you know that you've made the grandest difference in my life and i know i barely get to see you, but thank you for being just a phone call away
octavio,
thanks for being there for me all the time. i don't know how we even became friends, or what happened at all really, but thanks for the past three months. you were honestly one of the last people i thought i'd ever be friends with, but i'm glad that we are. i'm so thankful for having your company all the time, and i know we both get annoyed by each other, (but most we're just both annoyed by me) but thank you for still sticking through all of it. i really do enjoy all our starbucks runs and walking to class and talking about taylor swift and whatnot. thank you for all these little things that all seem to add up to make my day better than it would have otherwise. so yeah, thank you for all that, because it really does mean so much to me
jing & wayne,
thank you so much for giving me a second home. whenever i'm with you guys, it's like a safe haven where i'm always welcome. it's like whenever i'm at your house, i get that feeling of sleep in your own bed after travelling for weeks at a time. thank you for that. thank you for being my second parents and treating me like your second daughter. thank you for inviting me to everything, for taking the time to make me part of your life. it's an honor to be so close to people as amazing as you guys with such wonderfully amazing quirks and stories. if i never met you guys, high school would have been so much exponentially worse than it was, and thank you for making it so much better than i had originally expected. thank you for being my second family, lovelovelove
hayden & sarah,
thank you so much for those two weeks. you have no idea how much i think about it on a daily basis, and how much i just wish i could go back. you guys made me feel so welcome so fast, and you're too amazing for words. thank you for being instant best friends, for making the coral princess to feel like home when home was two thousand miles away. thank you for the stories, for what was probably fourteen hour days together, for allahmahoo
lastly, mes padres,
you give up so much for me, and i now i don't always show it, but i really do notice. thank you for all the little things, for all the big things, and everything in between. i'm sorry i'm not always the best child, but you're always the best parents. thank you for supporting me, and always having the best in mind for me in all your decisions. you've given up your own worlds for mine, and a million times thank you.
thank y'all for everything you've given to me, thank you for all our conversations, thank you for all our stories, thank you thank you thank you, and may these memories break our fall.
