Banging my keyboard when bored \_(ツ)_/
When all my emotions are jumping up and down and I try to be normal by putting up a poker face that's the time I realize how inconvenient it is to be a happy bunny all the time because whenever you try out that poker face people are concerned like "oh my god! are you alright? Has something happened to you? Are you going to die? "Blah Blah Blah and further shit. Well okay relax guys good to see your concern but I too feel like shit sometimes. I too feel hollow inside my chest without any reason. I too get sad. YES! That's a true fact I too feel sad without any proper reason. But people are like -whyyyy are you sad my little girl??? Be happy !!! like the way we perceive you to be all the time (because your poker face and indifference makes us uncomfortable). Shit man! Sorry I made you uncomfortable. Oh! I think I am not sorry ¯\_(ツ)_/¯. So to make it clear I just want to tell all the people who love, care and get concerned about me that I really love being happy, I really love to giggle with you people and make crappy jokes and punch you on the arm for no good reason but there are also times when I want to get recharged or rather say I need to get recharged because being happy and positive is really good thing yet nonetheless tiresome. When you are riding a rollercoaster as there will be many high points which will give you an immense adrenaline rush but elevated levels of that shit can also kill you so you will try to catch your breath when the ride reaches the low part. That's how it works for me too; being sad and solitary helps me to catch my breath since I am always riding high up on that emotional rollercoaster. So the next time you guys see me sulking up in a corner let me sulk up because that's the way I refill my emotional sap ( a secret sap- made up of sugar and spice and all things nice, seasoned with anger,sloth gluttony & some other exotic vice ;)