Dear Tumblr, Please explain.
My mother gets mad because I don't do enough around the house. I admit it. But I am also suffering from anemia and severe chemical depression as a result of some medical treatment. So I am pretty much thoroughly exhausted all the time.
Today, 20 years ago, my dad died when I was 1. Now we all celebrate in our own ways and this year because we did not go to the cemetery, and I didn't have the stomach for cake. Mom didn't want to clean the house, and so when she called me out to do some yard work I took the opportunity to give tribute to my father by doing some yard work. Mother and I mowed the lawn together, 30/80. And Then I cut down some hedges that were a huge block for our view of backing from our drive way. He kept the hedges nice and square that's what I wanted.
Because of my medical issues, my face gets really red when I do ANY work, I sweat easily because everything is hard work for me, and I breath hard and shake because again. Exhausted.
Mom tells me to come in while I am on the last two branches I plan on doing. I tell her I just want to do them and she comes around to force her help on me then gets mad because I want to do it. She says I am going to hurt myself and that all she can see is dollar signs for all the treatment I'll need.
I can't go back to physical therapy because I am in charge of it myself. I know all the tools I just use them when I'm having a flair up.I have been gardening and cutting saplings down all spring and this was no different. I played video games all day.
SO you would think. That because mom thinks I don't do enough, it would have been super awesome for her to see me doing work. And instead she is now so angry with me she is ignoring me.
I DO see her side. I mean she doesn't want me to get hurt. She is just protecting me.
But SERIOUSLY? She never listens to me. She literally hurt herself TODAY in the hip because she wouldn't wait for me to reach a save point in a game I couldn't pause before she moved a heavy footlocker on her own. :/
