sunday evenings were most usually spent in the library with hana. they’d claimed their thrones in the third-floor reading room (the most regal-esque and intact armchairs the aging room had to offer) while hana poured over her notes for the coming week’s lessons. theoretically, junho was also to be studying, though most nights he spent admiring the beautiful autumn witch he’d somehow managed to make his.
this was not one of those evenings.
instead, he found himself in a damp and long-forgotten basement classroom he hadn’t known existed until that night. the rotting, wooden desks and chairs pushed to the outer corners of the room. the only source of light came from a, now broken, ring of wax candles in the center of the room - the meticulously set circle disturbed by the unmoving body of a man. though his mind only made this connection in an attempt to settle his turning stomach. sebastian was no more than a boy... a kid, like him, like hana... capable of change he earnestly believed anyone was capable of.
sebastian no longer had that chance.
he wished he felt sorrier than he did. he wished he didn’t feel so smug. he was sick with himself because deep down he’d wanted this. he’d hated the slimy bastard more than he’d hated anyone in his entire life. but did that make him deserving of death? even if he’d wished the same upon junho?
he tore his gaze from the circle to hana. he hardly recognized here these days. she looked the same in many ways. the way her hair gently framed her face, the way her lips pursed tight in concentration, the way her skin glowed in the light. yet she seemed so far away, she had been far away. junho realized in many ways she’d become a stranger and it made his world feel so empty.
‘ hana, what have you done? ’ his voice came out small and unsure, two things junho certainly was not. he consciously made a point to stand his ground despite every muscle in his body urging him to take a step back. he came to another realization that he no longer knew what she was capable of. deep down, he knew, he hoped she still cared. she’d just saved his life, had she not? yet he couldn’t with confidence put his entire trust in her.
there was only one thing he still knew: he loved her.
‘ you should go. ’ he said decidedly. ‘ go back to the autumn house and make sure no one sees you. go to bed. i’ll handle this. ’ / @rackandrouge