#raegushes

[raenaetbh]

when you and bros whole dynamic starts becoming so special to you, you start looking forward for a days new beginning; realizing you needed a friend more than you realized

[raenaetbh]

my heart feels heavy from the anticipation of what i will be without your company

[raenaetbh]

(。·́︿·̀。)

it saddens me to almost see

how even when your attempt at gently loving me

was unsatisfactory compared to how someone

who almost seems to know it personally

can so effortlessly and effectively make me

feel just

understood

heard

loved,

even,

why is it so hard for you to love me like that

[raenaetbh]

(^з^)-☆

hearing you address me as something

that feels like more than just a name

"sweetheart"

"pretty boy"

"hon"

all that, mixed with your tone

your eyes on me

my foot taps, fast

you gently kiss my forehead

after i had let my eyes meet the ground

it taps faster

i close my eyes

as if it would make you go away

not because i want you to

but your gaze

is making me want to hide

confusing, considering i love looking into them

my head turns to keep hidden

but its only followed by small kisses

in every direction i take

it stops

my heart is all dizzy

to where i cant even find the means to shake it out

[raenaetbh]

𐔌՞ ܸ.ˬ.ܸ՞𐦯

there is a mutual understanding

for touch

but also a warning that itll end

whenever you get up to do something

letting me know that you wont be gone forever

instead of, leaving me to think until you come back

you let my thoughts rest steadily

and if they end up wandering,

they wander in directions that

are positive,

just from letting me know

[raenaetbh]

drawing on you

because art is never really finished

[raenaetbh]

🏰

i lie

my eyes closed

the air quiet

until i can hear your voice

being the only thing that breaks the hypnosis

of the sleep that draws me in closer

i feel as if i were outside

resting my eyes on the grass

but instead of letting the sun beam down on me

i lie in its lap

letting him take me adrift

[raenaetbh]

“i got distracted by the sky”

you say, and the way you say it

i can in-vision your eyes shifting back up

and i smile to myself

and think the word

while stopping them

“its only natural for the sun to want to turn to

light, like sunflowers to the sun”