just thoughts and feelings
so, i've decided i'll save the monster man au for later. the reason being that there's a lot of heavy subjects like grief, madness, darkness overall that still feel too raw for me to write about right now in the wake of my cousin's death (yes her death fucked me up really bad, especially because we were very close at one point and also because she was still so young) so i decided i'll go with the modern au with the dual timeline situation.
that one, while lighter, will have angst but also relationship drama, the doldrums of your late 20s/early 30s/quarter life crisis, losing yourself and wanting to find yourself again, and just overall something i feel like i just need to explore that because that's the stage of life i'm personally in right now.
also my friend i crushed on/hooked up with once is back in my life and we've getting into it with our feelings and being honest with each other so it's been a lot to process. so i feel like this will be personal but also a lot of fun. stay tuned.
