#raindrops rambles

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I don't have a short caption to go along with this artwork. I don't think I could come up with something fitting that also expresses everything I want to say, so I'm going to ramble instead.

this drawing is a virtual webkinz pet, fairykinz panda cub. did you know you can still play the webkinz game? my sister and I recently started playing it again, and it's really cathartic yet strange to come back to things you once loved with new eyes, of sorts. it's like opening up a time capsule.

here is an image of the fairykinz panda cub:

I didn't choose this particular pet for a reason. actually, I didn't pick this pet at all. I went up to my sister and asked her to pick one for me to draw, and this is the one she chose. and for how I depicted this cub, a lot of my inspiration comes from @/wolfertinger666. I adore the way he draws bodies and how you can see so much of the passion and love that he puts into his artworks.

anyways—this piece is about reclaiming and honoring childhood. as someone who went through childhood trauma, nostalgia is not always pleasant. I didn't deserve what I had to go through as a child. but it is also true there were good parts to that time of my life and I smile at many of those experiences. I think that our past still lives within us and we have the chance to remember and honor it. we can cherish our past selves while also acknowledging the pain.

here's an alt version without the beam of light:

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three bunnies looking at each other uOxOu

reference image:

aaaaand ramble time.

I like how this turned out ૮₍ ´ ꒳ `₎ა this is a Flemish Giant rabbit... how cool is that!! I didn't know any bunnies could get that big... but anyways! I didn't draw William's glasses here because I was unhappy with how it looked when I tried to draw them in. it was also difficult to get the hair to look right, and it still doesn't look right honestly, but other than that, I like it <3

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hello there, we are the raindrops system, aka the rainstorm system! a nerdy bunch of queers just trying to get by. we like fnaf, cartoons, art, biology, evolution, and more :3

no dni; we will just block if we're ever uncomfortable.

we welcome asks, but please do not send vent asks. here is a link to our boundaries about system-related asks.

did-research.org is a good resource if you don't know what DID is or if you want to learn more.

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meet our alters:

#💾 will/orchid — he/him, xe/xem, shy/hyr. genderqueer trans man and bisexual. introject. runs an awesome fnaf rp blog: @anominous-ominous + @w-j-afton.

#🌼 cai/rain — also nicknamed starlight. xe/xem, they/them, kit/kits +any neos. nonbinary and bisexual. runs an awesome affirmations and mental health blog @glimmering-hope.

#🐇 bunys — our collective tag, mostly for will and cai in tandem. xe/xem, they/them.

#🐺 canidae — wolf alter. it/wolf. probably wont post but sometimes we reblog stuff we think it would like

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you can support us on kofi! commissions are open.

our ao3 is tulipsstar, though writing takes a while for us! here are two of our fics:

Hiccup, a story about a FNAF fan named Jeremy who inexplicably finds himself in a FNAF universe.

A Melody Misplaced, an AU story about William Afton going through the aftermath of losing his wife and children to murder, the killer unknown to him. (ao3 synopsis: An Afton never truly dies.)

tags:

#raindrops.sys.art — art by us

#raindrops.sys.writing — writing by us

#raindrops.sys.asks — answered asks

#raindrops rambles — long posts about various topics

#raindrops.sys.poetry — poems we have written

#raindrops.sys.vent — vent posts. filter this tag if you do not wish to see these.

#purple rabbits — will's yumeship with william afton (yes)

ocs and fics:

#oc: anominous — drawings of or posts about Orchid's William-Afton-self-insert oc (it's complicated) also known as Allium and William

#oc: beleth — drawings or posts about our succubus/demon furry oc named Beleth

#oc: jeremy becerra — drawings or posts about our human fnaf fan oc named Jeremy

#oc: maya the ghost — posts about our ghost oc

#fic: a melody misplaced — posts about our ao3 fnaf fic, A Melody Misplaced

#fic: hiccup — posts about our ao3 fnaf fic, Hiccup

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just got reminded of these google forms I would make as a teen when I was on twitter where people would ask me questions about DID (e.g. "is it possible to be a system without having PTSD?") like why are you asking a teenager on the Internet this ???

I would also get questions that were more about my experiences as a system and I enjoyed those. it's just the, like, technical or scientific questions that irk me nowadays. how am I supposed to know? I don't study human brains

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As a system, "This Is What It Sounds Like" from KPop Demon Hunters really touched me. I got chills after like every line when listening to it for the first time. I actually started crying, too. I want to point out the parts that stuck out to me and talk about it.

We broke into a million pieces and we can't go back But now we're seeing all the beauty in the broken glass

That is such a common allegory for DID, broken glass, and I immediately made the connection. These lyrics are so beautiful to me. To me, it means seeing the beauty in my alters. We're not all perfect, obviously. We're hurt. We're traumatized. Some of us handle our emotions better than others. But that doesn't make us tainted or wrong. We're just trying to survive. And we are beautiful even after all of it, and we can glow.

The scars are part of me, darkness and harmony

The scars are part of me. My trauma is part of me. My hurt is part of me. But that doesn't mean I will never be anything more than the pain. Yes, there is anguish, but there is also joy. We found people who care for us, people who will stay by our side even through really tough shit, and we will continue to find those people I hope. Darkness and harmony makes me think of our different alters. We have such strong fury inside of us because of what has happened to us, and sometimes that gets really ugly. There are vindictive parts. There are hurting parts. But we are also learning—slowly, messily, with bumps and hitches—to heal. Every day, I get to see my cohost Will smile in headspace, and that is wonderful. I love seeing him glow. And she loves seeing me glow too. Not all our altere get along, but that doesn't have to mean chaos. Our harmony is not perfect, but it's not non-existent.

I just really love this song. Songs about coming up out of the ashes that your trauma left behind, having the courage to openly share that pain and expose your vulnerability and true self... it just makes me feel hope. Hope that maybe someday I won't have to just pretend to be one orderly singular consciousness in this body. That maybe I won't always have to cover up the colors stuck inside my head.

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You said, "baby, no attachment,"

But we're

Knee deep in the passenger seat and you're eating me out

Is it causal now?

little rant blow ⬇️

i think Anominous would relate a lot to Casual. in college, he and Henry's relationship was like this: Henry would constantly deny the two were together because of internalized homophobia, but they still fucked and were romantic and whatnot. William (Anominous) was still trying to figure out who the hell he was and Henry was trying to control him to be who he wanted him to be. because of this, he didn't have the chance to fully explore himself. this is why she only had hyr trans awakening in later adult life when he surrounded herself with people who properly supported him. there's a lot more to William and Henry's relationship, but I won't get into it here.

i also want to add that it's hard for me to draw characters consistently, especially Anominous, so hyr appearance does change from drawing to drawing. i have differing pictures of hyr in my head and they don't all line up. there's also the added bonus of the illusion disk which shy uses to give himself breasts (sort of a temporary top surgery, lol). i like to incorporate little parts of my own physical appearance into his when i can, because in truth, Allium is very much a reflection of myself in a lot of ways. but his body is still very much different from mine.

I'm also hoping that, in time, i can draw him to look more of the age he actually is. he is in her 40s, but you can't really tell that by my drawings because I'm not very good at showing age quite yet. I'm just an artist who does art for fun, so improvement isn't really the biggest thing on my mind, but slow improvement is nothing to be ashamed of. sure, i am definitely self-conscious about my art sometimes, but really, I'm having fun and that's what matters.

maybe "small rant" was a bit of a lie but, eh, it's my blog, i do what i want, if you don't care then you don't care and that's fine. i want to start letting myself ramble about shit like this more but i hold back.

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pony OCs! (she/her for both)

some more bits I didn't write down

Black Cherry Drizzle

her design is based on black cherry ice cream

she is Cheery Jubilee's niece

in her free time, she collects rocks, gems, geodes, etc.

she has social anxiety

her coat is a dark maroon color

her mane and tail are a reddish pink with dark brown streaks

Sunrise Luster

her name is a jab Twilight Sparkle, Sunset Shimmer, and Starlight Glimmer because I think it's funny how they're practically synonyms

her favorite place to shop is Canterlot Carousel, Rarity's boutique in Canterlot

she's not very good at magic so she tries to avoid using her horn

her coat is a brilliant scarlet (red-orange)

her mane and tail are light yellow with white streaks

[raindropssys]

evolution and natural selection are not the same thing!!

natural selection is one of the mechanisms of evolution. the terms are not synonymous. some other ways evolution can occur is by genetic drift, mutations, or gene flow.

evolution is any change in the heritable traits of a population over multiple generations. it doesn't have an end goal. there is no perfect organism who is "more evolved" than anything else (yes, including humans). "survival of the fittest" is not a very useful phrase. Darwin got some things right but he also got things wrong. we've moved past his time and learned much more than what he knew, let's get with the program.

evolution is so bloody cool! i love learning about it and learning new things and i love explaining what i know to people and crossing my fingers hoping my explanations make sense! i bloody love biology, that's why its my major! yes, it is definitely a difficult subject to study, but it's worth it! you don't have to be a science-y person to understand and appreciate evolution and it's never too late to learn more.

now here is where i'll recommend some resources:

the Amoeba Sisters have an overview of evolution that may be helpful, especially since i didn't go through what all the mechanisms of it are, I just said what they're called. i use these videos a lot when I need to brush up on something or when my professors explained it in a confusing way. the videos don't go super in-depth; they are just there to explain the basics, and i believe the descriptions usually have recommendations for further reading on the subject(s).

Forrest Valkai has a series on his YouTube channel titled The Light of Evolution and he does a wonderful job of explaining these concepts and more. if you're interested, i highly suggest the series and his channel in general!

Light of Evolution