Despite the fact that almost every character here is happy, there is nothing good about what I'm about to say.
(CW: mentions of grooming and fetish stuff, manipulation, and general harassment under the cut)
Matsuura (someone on DeviantArt) groomed me by pressuring me to make his fetish art and used my friendship with him against me. Nobody stopped him until he was called out.
Mohamadou (someone else on DeviantArt, the Windows XP bitch) manipulated me by using my friendship with him against me when I chose to stick with him after HE harassed someone. He made me create a pregnant Windows artwork in skimpy clothing when I didn't want to. He also did lots of other weird shit. Nobody stopped him.
When I called out LiveDawn (on DeviantArt) for grooming Special Heart, no one believed me. Everyone sided with him and blocked me.
When I called out DerekMundo, everyone immediately blocked him.
But when I noticed weird behavior from DTIG2002Art (Dylan) and called him out, everyone kept quiet to protect their images. Nobody actually wanted to help. Nobody believed me.
Now that everyone's been called out, they act as if nothing happened. As if they did NOTHING.
All they did was make half-assed "apologies" or didn't apologize at all to please their audience of mindless fucking drones.
They harass one of my friends and don't expect it to come back and bite them in the asses.
And when I stood up for myself or somebody else, or when my friend stood up for themselves, they never believed us. They antagonized us, then make us look like the bad guys for speaking out. They played the victim. They always did.
To those people who never helped when we needed them:
Fuck you. Fuck ALL of you. I HATE YOU.
I will never forgive you for what happened. I don't wanna see your engagement bait "vent arts" and I don't wanna hear your LAME excuses.
Good fucking riddance.
...and for those who actually did stay with me and trust me, thank you.
Sooooo, my Rp’s are are slowing down a lot, so here’s a mun thing!
Ya, my rp threads are all slowly slowing down. I’m not going to or tying to rush them, I understand busy busy times. Just my bad luck that their all hitting their busy days at around the same time. So, I’m going to give anybody who’s interested enough to read this a general idea of the mun’s personality, in a rather unique way I have had in my mind for a long time.
So, the first one I thought of, and both of these I thought up some time ago, was while playing Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel with a friend. An equation to get a general feel of my personality would be: Gaige + Athena = Me - gender. Me and him have always drawn a few parallels between Gaige’s personality and mine, her being the character I played the most in Borderlands 2 we got plenty of her dialog. And in the Pre-Sequel, I went to Athena without a second thought, I’m a big sword and shield fan, and she had an amazing shield. She didn’t really have a particularly large amount of similarities to me, but her combat style was more my thing and so I started related myself to the two of them via the made up equation above.
Then, sometime after that (I think it was after it and not before, anyways) while watching RWBY for the first or second time, probably the first though, I was quickly able to relate many aspects of my personality too two characters in particular, and came up with this fictional equation for my personality that is considerably more accurate than the first:
Ruby Rose + Pyrrha Nikos = Me - gender
This is surprisingly accurate, and I leave it up to you to figure out in what ways it is. This is just me sharing some character combos that can more or less equate to my personality. And yes, I have noticed and laughed about the fact that both of these involve adding two female characters together to get my personality. Life’s weird like that, huh?
At night sometimes I don’t even feel like an actual person. It isn’t like an all-the-time feeling, just usually at night, right before bed, and it makes it hard to sleep. Like, I feel so disconnected from the world that it doesn’t seem like anything is real, like everything is just made up and playing pretend, and when I try to make it seem real to me by focusing on things they seem really far away. Sometimes I’ll try to focus on like, a memory, or a task, but the memories feel distant like I’m thinking about a TV show and the tasks all feel like make-believe too. Say I’m cleaning my room, it feel like I’m make-believing I’m me cleaning my room, like I'm running around pretending the be chased by a monster but there's not really a monster and I know that, because I know it's a game, only this is real life. Does that make sense? Like I feel like I’m acting a role out in a play or something, but I’m just doing what I would normally do or whatever. I don’t know. Then sometimes I start thinking and I get so caught up in thinking that the whole world fuzzes out and I get confused about how I feel- do I really feel that way about this thing? Do I actually care about this or do I just think I should care so I go through the motions of caring but really I don’t give a fuck and I’m just a big phony? And if I’m just playing a role then who am I underneath? What am I? Who the fuck am I? What the hell am I doing?
And then I get frustrated because I don’t have any answers.
