my mom was like ugh why do you always have to use your depression as an excuse to avoid doing chores and your responsibilities why does it just so happen that youre depressed and dont wanna do anything the moment i ask you to do anything?
and im like
mom
you know that i had an incredibly awful fuckin time sleeping last night, due to not only my depression and fucking hallucinations, but also your bitchass fucking keeping me up as well,
you KNOW that the last thing i want to fucking be right now is depressed,
and tbh with you if you test me like that one more fucking time when im in the mood to fucking stab myself repeatedly you bet your fucking ass im going to go into that fucking kitchen and break every single piece of kitchenware we fucking got in this piece of shit vicinity
why would i want to fucking deal with your petty little fucking problems, like washing this fucking plate or buying this stupid thing at the store when I DONT EVEN WANT TO FUCKING DEAL WITH MY OWN GIANT FUCKING UGLY INTERNAL ISSUES, OR EVEN TAKE CARE OF MYSELF AND MORE IMPORTANT RESPONSIBILITIES.
YOU DIDNT EVEN FUCKING HELP ME WHEN I NEEDED YOU AND THEN GOT PISSED AT ME FOR BEING TOO TIRED TO GO TO SCHOOL BECAUSE I SPENT ALL MORNING AND NIGHT TRYING TO FUCKING GET BACK HOME LIKE SERIOUSLY???????? FUCK YOU. TELLING ME IM JUST USING FUCKING EXCUSES. I DONT WANNA DO SHIT, NOT EVEN THE STUFF ID ACTUALLY LIKE DOING RIGHT NOW. IM SERIOUSLY JUST GONNA FUCKING CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP EARLY TONIGHT AND YOU TELLING ME THAT IM USING MY MENTAL ILLNESS AS A FUCKING EXCUSE TO AVOID RESPONSIBILITIES IS THE MOST FUCKING NEUROTYPICAL BULLSHIT YOU COULD EVER FUCKING GIVE ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
