#rancid rambles

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Look, well all know Andrew reads but GUYS (and I cannot emphasise this enough)

These are library books. He…he goes to the library.

This is the purest and most adorable thing. My entire world has been flipped and I can now see the horizon.

(I know these pictures are old but still I love it)

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It's so weird to hear people talk about euphoria when they themselves have not been directly harmed by addiction. My father was an alcoholic for most of my life (he's six years sober btw and I am so proud of him) and I also struggle with addiction (nicotine has me in a fuckin chokehold rn but there were many other substances before that).

When I watch euphoria it's almost healing for me. They show addiction in such a raw and ACCURATE way. They don't glorify or demonize it. They show how the same substance can be used casually and for fun for others but also how it can completely rule over others. (Think of the way Maddie and Cassie take molly at the fair verses every time Rue gets high).

Rue is deeply flawed. She is truly damaged.

But not irredeemable.

They show how "fun" drugs are for Rue but also the great trial of detoxing. That scene where she's practically drooling and weak and shaking so intensely that she can't even open a jolly rancher. That is so real. I cannot even fully articulate how very real that is.

They show her battle with mental illness and self-medicating. They show the complicated dynamic of loving someone while they are going through this.

I love the writing for her family so much. Her mother is objectively great but doesn't always respond "correctly". She's not always sweet and kind towards Rue and her addition. She tells Rue that she doesn't care if she wants to "kill [herself] doing drugs, go ahead" and that "If I have to choose between losing one daughter or two, I'm gonna fight to save [Gia]" and that's not a very kind, motherly thing to say. But it is so justified and a very genuine and truly exhausting thing you would (and I have) say to some. Even one you love so deeply.

Her sister looks up to Rue. She loves her sister and is her greatest enabler. She is constantly manipulated by Rue and by the end you see her truly distraught by her sister's relapse. But unlike her mother, she doesn't allow herself to be truly angry. Gia still tries to defend her sister, even to herself. Rue's mentor tries to get her to admit that she's angry, hurt, and she can't.

in Rue's ending monologue she says that she stayed sober for the rest of the school year and "I wish I could say that was a decision I made...I don't know if this feeling will last forever, but I am trying." And that's something that I felt in my bones. It's embedded within me. As is the way she describes getting into drugs. She is a very round character and not just a caricature of the classic "drugged-up cool teen."

It's odd to me when people say they love this "over-the-top drama" (which it definitely is at times I'm not even gonna lie) and then use scenes of Rue being an addict as evidence. It's crazy to me that to most people Rue's addiction is outlandish and wild when it's very...true-to-life. just not to their life.

I love Rue. I love that Zendaya loves Rue. I love that people love Rue. Because I see so much of myself in her. For better or for worse. It means so much to me that she is and can be loved. And I think it's vital when we live in a time where the "woke" majority will say that addiction is an illness but then make jokes at the expense of addicts, that we have a character that is an addict. But also a young girl, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and a person.

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Hey guys! I wanna thank you for being so patient with me. I know I haven't updated in a while. For the time being, I am swamped and unfortunately haven't had the time or creative energy to write much. Or more so, my writing is not very good right now, and anything I have done, I am not proud of. I want to write more and also do some writing I would feel comfortable putting in a portfolio (I like having my fics anonymous and don't want to attach anything but my pseudonym to them) and unfortunately, there are only twenty-four hours in a day. So, for now, I would say, consider me on hiatus (If you haven't already). Again, I'm sorry, I know I look to this kind of content as an escape as well, but I hope you can find it elsewhere for now.

Here are some of my favourite writers (in no particular order), I would definitely give them try:

@secretaccountlol, @reidslovely, @slytherheign, @backupanddoitagain, @webslingingslasher, @upsidedownwithsteve, @withahappyrefrain, @p3mybeloved, @liz-allyn, @blooming-violets, @venus616, @steveharringtons-lover, @voicemailsfrompeterparker,

Please be respectful of their blogs and boundaries

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Law and order SVU is the American equivalent of Dr Who

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Waffle House includes the sales tax in their prices and that’s just yet another example of Waffle House leading the charge for change in our nation

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Some of my favourite notifications on this app is seeing that someone liked my story and then followed me. It warms my heart so much. And then when I see their name again later, on some other post, and I smile. Like wow, you really did like it. And you continue to like it. Or if they reblog the work too. That’s amazing. You read my story, and liked enough to share it. Thank you 🥹

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I started rewatching Dr Who today…

Big mistake. I watched as a kid before I thought any of the characters were hot. Now I’m twenty and all of them are hot. And neurodivergent.

I’m turning off my likes during this time. I hope you understand.

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So what if I told you that I haven't written a thing for my on going series, but I did finish a 15k+ fic that's very plotty porn. what then.