#random long post

[tamikimaru]

So, One day, watching random videos, I found this one cutie in a... cringe compliation. I thought it was unfair, and between laughs I made a bet with my brother, on drawing her again ‘’Because she actually seems pretty!’’ Without knowing who created the character. In the end, I decided to redraw her. - And now my brother’s been pleased. |D Anyone knows who this fluffy one belongs to? :D

[yourfriendpolo]

im that person whos constantly really, really worrying about their art. 

"oh shit. it sucks." 

"oh, this drawing just looks really boring." 

"what am i doing? cant it be better?"

the thing is, i truly think my art is just... really boring. 

my skills? i dont have skills. i would say "they are decent." as a perfectionist, i would get frustrated a lot. sometimes, its not a good feeling at all the think "i must make this good" while trying to draw. and it always comes out worse because its never so natural.

i know that feeling where you want to be as good as someone else. i dont think i can say my art is bad because ive learnt that its quite offensive to say that. its not a good way of thinking to begin with, however, saying how bad it is, you know what i get? "thats an insult to other people" even if i sincerely think its bad i would still get "if thats bad then what about me?" its a bit frustrating sometimes, like, hey, i didnt intend to look down on you, i just really want to get better.. but anyway,

theres this amazing artist i know that i wish i could do like what she does because it just looks sooo good. always so powerful and much more colorful, better composition than that i could do. but i cant be like that. i just cant. or if i can then will that still be me? my own style?

i know we dont have the same resource and time. some people study art, some make a career out of that, etc. some would say "its not fair, i cant do that because i havent studied in art school."  well.. i never studied art, too.

buttt hey, its not that your drawings have to be full cg with that perfect shadow and lighting and massive background (i mean, if for the practice and if you can then good.) but whats the beauty, whats the fun in seeing that everyone is the same? what you're doing is.. unusual? unlike the mainstream? well good, you've got a style then. what makes you great and memorable is how unique you can be. idolizing someone is not wrong, but too much then its as though the same as living your real life, trying hard to be someone else you are not is not so effective somehow. its quite uncomfortable? in the end, you would spend your time pleasing other people and losing your yourself along the way. so ask yourself is that rewarding? are you satisfied? oh well, or maybe you are?

you know, when you think you're good enough already, there will always be someone whos better than you (lol). its like the truth of the universe. dont be sad, dont be jealous, just do your thing. is it not good to know you can improve more and more? 

perfection is so boring. it is like a dead-end.

art is not about perfection. and beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

[moodyeucalyptus]

The Big Con

I’m listening to this interesting podcast (episode called “The Shell Game”) that’s interviewing a slight of hand artist and old school conman, (now reformed). 

He’s talking about The Long Confidence Game: A con job, that takes multiple people to pull off, but usually has a point person. And he just said something so profound to me, as I stress out about Donald Trump and what he’s already doing to us all with his shady business deals and disregard for diplomacy. 

I can’t stop thinking about how Republicans in Congress let this man become their candidate in the first place:

“We call them Confidence Games because they’re built on the idea that I put my confidence in this sucker. You know? A real confidence game can only be done with somebody who has cupidity in his soul. Somebody that is larcenous in his soul. Swindles, you can do a swindle on anyone. You could swindle some old lady out of her savings, but that’s not the same as a confidence game. A confidence game is where you make somebody think they have an unfair advantage on somebody else. And they’re willing to take that unfair advantage of somebody else, and then they get taken.”

I can’t help thinking Donald Trump and his family/advisors Conned the GOP, and Swindled the American people. The GOP thought they were smarter than Trump and they could use him to push agendas and manipulate voters, so they continually: supported him then disavowed then supported then... rinse repeat, because they thought they’d be able to manage him, and that he wouldn’t actually win. But their culpability in fake supporting Trump, helped him Swindle enough of the American people that he could squeak out an electoral college “win” (IF that’s even legit). 

He’s a crook! An actual conman in a business suit. And we’re all going to feel the effects of his criminality for a long time beyond the next 4 years, I have a feeling. 

The only thing I can think to do, is work HARD, in your community to protect yourself and the people you care for. Buckle up everyone.

[milktoes]

Vague posts abt things. Jk I'm not about that I want my ex back lmao My friends that I have talked to about it are like no don't cuz he has a gf and also things weren't that great right? But I am like. It wasn't all his fault it was me too and I see that and I wanna try again cuz I miss him a lot and I feel like well even tho I am a mess in other aspects I feel like I finally understand what I'm looking for in that respect. I sent a really long apology lmao I'm not gunna show it cuz it long and he was like thank you I really appreciate it and then we kept talking. There was a point were ... I dunno how to explain it lol but I was being kinda quiet?? And I dunno he knows me so he knew what I wanted to ask and I think he would have said yes but didn't ask in time so I fucked that up:v but I mean I don't know if it's just me but I still feel a slim chance ... LOL

[palechaoslover]

So my friend introduced me to Casey Neistat’s vlogs over the summer and at first I was like eh i don’t wanna watch some rich asshole do all these great things that I can’t do, but then I watched his draw my life and like, he’s done extremely well for himself and he really deserves all his success and i just love his vlogs because when people send him questions like “How do i get money for a camera like yours” he straight up is like work for it and it’s just refreshing to see someone be like YOU HAVE TO WORK HARD FOR THINGS. YOU CAN’T JUST HAVE EVERYTHING HANDED TO YOU ALL THE TIME because i work hard all the time for every single thing, i saved up for a while to get a new part for my computer so it would still work and i worked hard for my camera gear and i work very very very very hard to afford my travels and in the times when i’m not doing these things i’m working for it sucks so bad, but they pay off is incredible and so so worth it.  Idk finding Casey’s vlogs kinda keeps me motivated to keep going and not get too down on myself for working so much or being out of school and it’s kinda nice. 

[dark-waterfall-art-blog]

Tis me the dark lord Satan

JK it's just Kurai. Have a smol* (*long) post about me because I have nothing better to do. Name: Kurai Taki Actual Name: Wait and see maybe you'll find out I'm 14, a sophomore in high school, I'm mildly obsessed with different fandoms Anime is life and also Homestuck Mostly I work traditionally but when I have time I doot around on the drawing tablet and Manga Studio 5 I love requests and I might start doing commissions sometime when this blog is more established Other than that, HI!!!!

[morbidlycrunchy]

random shipping

so I started shipping my saxophone teacher and my composer and when I have sax lessons we some how talk about random shit and I told him when a show kills me or a book and I told him about shipping but my composer doesn know what it is and they are like best friends and I told them ones “I SHIP YOU TOO SO MUCH” and my composer was like “what..?” and my teacher was like “NO ELI DONT YOU DARE”

[nu-west-xiv]

I think literally using the word nigga is fucking dumb to no means but its a habit that people have picked up n I use to n sometimes still have. I just swapped that with the word bruh it goes down like way nicer n its not hinting towards anything derogatory. Least not that I know of plus like when people say that shit like all the time it irks the fuuuccck outta me like so many other things to say n you say nigga at the end or beginning of every sentence like yes America has shit education system but you still got like a million options. But when say this shit to some of my friends o just get laughed at n taking so light .