#random vent sorry

[copperstars]

I feel awful. I got too obsessive and clingy and I didn’t realize that I was love-bombing. I didn’t even intend to love-bomb. I just was scared to lose him. Am I too scared? Why do I always mess things up? I feel like shit. I always get scared of losing them I get obsessive and clingy it’s not okay. I want to disappear so badly. I’m a terrible person.

[lakesparkles]

My new plan is to draw everything I wanted during the whole week on the weekend

[idolicdemon]

it's funny to still feel alone even on pride month

well, it's only been one day, but you know

just haven't seen a single aromantic flag yet

happy pride month otherwise though!

[chalice-turd]

Don't wanna sound dramatic but I feel like I'm drifting farther away from reality every day, sleeping is becoming more difficult because my intrusive thoughts keep me awake. And I can't even read certain fan fics without them triggering those thoughts

[copperstars]

What sucks is knowing that my parents would probably never let me go on HRT until I move out. But I’m also scared to go on HRT, I mean, you can take T in many ways but I wanna do the needles since I’m not exactly scared of them but I’m just scared that after I start, no one will love me the same. This world is full of nice people, but not enough nice people.

Idk man, I’m just worried.

[mossmanismoss]

Didn't get diagnosed because too empathetic and too social 🧍‍♂️

Man said I was great at making eye contact and I didn't even make eye contact once the whole time. I was on a waiting list for months just to be told exactly what I feared would happen.

Immediately started crying when I got to the car

[yourwaistlookssupportive]

sometimes i think about all the horrible racist and bigoted shit ive seen my family do and how some of it is still in me in ways i cant control because it's so deep-rooted and ingrained into my actions that i just get really fucking pissed

yes i can control who i am as a person but some things you just can't when you grow up certain ways

the whole nature vs nurture thing is bullshit they both take huge parts in who you are and there is absolutely nothing you can do about how you're raised and it really fuckin sucks if you have shitty parents and/or family

[babyjstatus-blog]

Oh boy, clicked on a random tumblr page then The Truth by Daniel D started playing.

I'm hurt. I shouldn't be feeling these feelings that i'm feeling. I don't know. I'm confused. I'm not over this situation. I know there is nothing there anymore for me. I just can't seem to let these memories go. It's been almost 4 years now since I last seen him. But as long as he is happy, i should be happy for him right? Okay, don't get me wrong i am happy for him. Happy that he knows where he stands in life and what he wants to accomplish. I'm happy he's gotten this far in life with going to college soon and all. I'm just not satisfied because i KNOW we could've had so much more. If it weren't for distance i'd be happy right now.