#randomly speaking

[alimistica]

randomly speaking #15

so on twitter i’m this happy and funny girl who tells jokes and ships couples and stuff.

here i’m just a depressed bag of laziness.

i definitely prefer tumblr duh :-)

[alimistica]

randomly speaking #11

i remember this guy in tv some years ago who said something that got stuck in my mind:

“in my life i did many things that made me proud of myself, but nothing that really made me happy”

i really feel him, cause i’m the average girl who usually takes good grades, who works quite hard, who let people copy the answers during the test.

needless to say, in this period i’m fucking up my entire life, tomorrow i’ve got a test, and -guess what- i’ll be the one who needs to copy.🤠

so my question was.. is that happiness yet?🤓

[alimistica]

randomly speaking #10

it’s just a temporary crisis that me and the world are getting trough

-that’s from an italian song called “I destini generali”

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randomly speaking #9

i weigh exactly as i did last summer (69,5 kg)

but i can’t see myself in the same way

i remember being, for most of the time, at peace with how i looked

now i see myself in the mirror and the only thing i can see is jiggling fat

i feel my clothes fitting better, but still can’t see any real difference in how i look, even though i lost almost 10 kg

i mean... excuse me wtf

[alimistica]

randomly speaking #7

today I’m insanely kinda happy and at peace with myself, even though this isn’t affecting at all my hunger and my diet. and I really don’t know whyyyy. I’m low-key waiting for the breakdown -or the binge- but I decided to seize the moment

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randomly speaking #6

it’s my birthday in a few day and in december, when I first met him we talked about that. but now he has surely forgotten the day because he actually doesn’t give a shit about my fucking birthday

so there’s this huge voice in my head, and she says “he won’t remember, he won’t remember, he won’t absolutely remember..”

and then there’s this tiny and sneaky and little voice saying “he will.”

I’m aware he actually won’t, but this little voice is making me going insane, and if I keep letting her in my head I will freak out

[alimistica]

randomly speaking #4

going to the bathroom at the uni, looking at myself in the mirror asking “how you dare going out like this?”

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randomly speaking #2

when I’m inattentive I could literally spend hours touching my collar bones, hoping they will pop out magically