[ unedited & not proof read. Very self indulgent so I had little care on if it even reads well tbh. but if someones enjoys it then Id be happy to know that ]
explicit || themes of toxic possessiveness and perhaps slight voyeurism I think?
around 4.5 k words. idk what happened. I had a lot to say I guess
to lust after the jarls wife is something rightfully frowned upon but a heart is not a thing you can control.
You once ran into her enjoying the chil morning air in the cold lake waters by a waterfall. It seemed that things deemed dangerous came like second nature to her. She wasn't afraid of catching a cold and she understood the elements of nature well enough to bathe without a care in the world
her red hair stood out like fire in the midst of blues and you stared minutes longer than intended.
she turned and smiled at you
“You are one of Eivors drengr. Come. keep me some company”
Hesitant you took off your furs and armor staying in your undergarments and joined her in the lake telling her tales of your raids, praising Eivor and SIgurd and trying to figure out if she was trying to find out your faithfulness to the clan
She seemed amused by your demeanor but didn’t try to lead the conversation anywhere. Left you wondering and speaking of anything and everything until it was finally time for you two to part ways.
The second time it was her catching you resting in the lake and while at first you got up to leave her you settled for offering her to join you which she gladly did.
It was the first time you saw her hair unbraided and her eyes dimmer. The days locked up in the map room seemed to be eating away at her.
“Tell me, what is it like out there? Beyond these fields and mountains?”
“It's a beautiful place, wild and full of nature…” You trailed on and she sat on a rock close to you braiding her hair which led you to see how calloused her hands were. Small scratches coated them and as your eyes trailed further up her arms you questioned her muscles and dips.
“You fell quiet so suddenly. Something’s troubling you?” She asked and you reached out and held her hand “I’m curious how someone who claims to have never left these fields could have hands that were crafted from adventures and training. If anything I’d be interested to know about your story”
And now it was her turn to fall silent only her eyes seemed to have regained a spark, a light you were certain you have never seen in her.
Ever since then Randvi always kept you close, lucky encounters turned to scheduled ones and you were often courting her to meetings and daily tasks. Everyone seemed oblivious to your closeness, No one questioned how she eagerly waited for your arrival after every raid or how every time you had a gift for her. No…everyone just brushed it off as you being “Randvis Drengr”
“Let's go back to the longship!” you heard Eivor call and you grabbed the last of what you could before grabbing your axe and heading back to the ship. She was ready to take command when you and few other soldiers jumped and took off
Oh, you came with good news today. You were excited to tell Randvi. With today's gains you could perhaps build Valkas hut and maybe a fishing line
“Many thoughts running through your mind. You thinking of how to impress the Jarlskona ?”
thrown off guard by eivors raspy voice you turned to look at her
“aren't we all?” you tried joking but she gave you a knowing look being well aware of your feelings for the woman.
one night when you both were drunk on ale and wouldn't stop yawping she shared her pain with you.
“I hoped she would take my offer and come back to raventhorpe with me but she seemed to be eaten alive by her guilt…”
her frown deepened and her smile sank. After her trip from Ireland Eivor fell quiet for weeks and went on with her duties without sparing time for anyone. You felt warm knowing you were probably one of the few people to now know why
“All I have now is a letter…she finished her song for me. Not that I will ever get to hear it”
you hoped to comfort her and told her of your unrequited love with a woman who is spoken for and Eivor caught on quicker than you hoped she would
“although my brother is dear to me I also care for Randvi as a friend and…I can see her wither in that map room” she confessed, which caught you off guard
“I just want what's best for the people I have close to me. You being one of them”
and that was encouragement enough. So after that night you felt more at ease consulting with Eivor like a friend rather than a distant leader. She wasn't the brightest in matters like these and many innuendos seemed to fly right above her but she was honest and her clarity was helpful enough
“This Jarlskona of yours…” Tried one of the new recruits that were freshly picked up after the raid “She sounds…scary”
Eivor looked at you and you both broke into laughter. Sure she seemed stern but Randvi was truly, a sweetheart
“Nothing to worry about. She does what's necessary to hold our settlement together but beyond that she is a very gentle woman” You offered but the girl didn't seem convinced as she kept tightening her grip on her sword and her lips thinned.
“Or you can just stand behind me and I'll protect you, my little fragile princess” You said with sarcasm but the girl seemed to find very different meaning behind your words and blushed. Was heartwarming to see a soldier have softness within her
you docked the ship and started gathering your things.
You grabbed a box and hopped off the boat seeing a familiar ginger make her way to you “Gods this raid was a long one. We began to worry”
you carelessly tossed the wooden box somewhere near you and readied yourself for Randvi as she fell in your arms for an embrace
“a warm welcome as always Randvi” and she chuckled in return
you dared to tighten your grip on her for a moment as you felt her hands around your shoulders and neck
her warmth and smell engulfing you and all too soon being pulled away as she went to greet Eivor with a handshake “meet me in the map room. I'm sure you have a lot of updates for me” she said now seriously and Eivor followed her to the longhouse.
“Lusting after our Jarls wife ? No wonder you and eivor get along so well”
you turned to Dag your mood immediately sour
“One aiming for his throne, the other for the wife while poor sigurd is out there fighting for us”
you grabbed your things with a grunt “Dag if you want to suck the Jarls dick so bad just do it and let us rest in peace” you barked successfully making him boil with anger
You heard a soft chuckle behind you and saw the Same girl from before. Your eyes met and she timidly stopped and looked at her companions “On another note, you” and you looked at the recruits
“Guess we will have to share our huts till we make space for them” You heard Dag say with a groan and you nod “Wanna come with me?” You asked the girl feeling a little more comfortable with her since well, you did share a couple words before and that was better than nothing. SHe eagerly nod and grabbed her sword and stuff
The walk to your hut was a quiet one. You had arrived earlier than people usually woke up, giving you the chance to watch the sunrise.
“How long have you been here?” The girl asked “couple of months. We have made quite the progress, wouldn't you say so-oh!” You looked up and she looked at you surprised “Your name…I never asked” You chuckled awkwardly never being good with meetings or small talk and she returned the gesture with a soft chuckle herself
“Nice to meet you Vika” Your eyes caught the first rays of sunlight coming through your window. You stood up “You know, make yourself comfortable here. I'll be back soon. Need to rest a bit” Not leaving much room for questioning you left your hut and climbed up the stone path above the waterfall seating yourself there and letting the breeze hit your face as you enjoyed the sunrise
“Am I interrupting?” you smiled.
“never” Randvi walked over and seated herself next to you on the rocks.
“the new recruits seemed awfully fond of you”
“Hardly. They are still scared. Apparently me and Eivor talking about you made them scared of our almighty Jarlskona that runs the settlement herself”
She laughed, the corners of her eyes crinkling and out of habit leaned her head against your shoulder
You weren't sure if such gestures were common against friends but you basked in the glory of having her this close to you. She toyed with the edges of her braided hair and asked her tone careful and shy
“WIll you join the feast tonight? Tekla made fresh ale. You could say we had a hunch you would arrive today”
“Hm” you looked off into the distance. Feasts were fun these days..now that Sigurd wasn’t here
“I might. Ah come to think of it, I brought you a gift” and she smiled and sat up to look at you “Its gift enough that you come back alive every time”
“No no, this, I’m sure you will like it” You said and got up offering your hand which she grabbed and got up with ease walking ahead of you “I like it every time, my sweet Drengr”
You’d always be fond of the retired warrior that still lived within her and only showed in small gestures like these.
Oh how you wished you could free her of her suffocating role binding her in these four walls
You quickened your pace opening the door to your hut catching Vika in her tunic only sitting on the bed with a book and you froze
Randvi questioned and you looked behind you, her eyes frosty, and her whole body tense. Vika also seemed to tense on the other end of the hut and immediately shot up “Good day”
Randvi offered a very cold nod looking her up and down. It was the first time you saw the intimidating Jarlskona that everybody spoke up
“What an interesting arrangement. Didn’t peg you for the kind” and you laughed awkwardly “Dag suggested we share huts with the new recruits-“
And Randvi smiled at you “Good. Wise of him. I'll see you at the feast then”
Turning on her heel she left and you slowly closed the door behind you being very confused by the sudden tension.
You were sure Randvi didn't return your feelings so to see her act …jealous? No it couldn’t be
“That was awkward” Vika tried and you smiled at her “Indeed”
“Weird how she had to check up on you in your hut. She really is controlling” And you let out a sigh of relief. At least your cover wasn’t blown.
You pulled out one of the boxes and looked at the fabric you found. An expensive one you spotted at the trade market but perfect to draw maps on. And Randvi above all always loved drawing the maps with care and detail.
You slid the fabrics in your satchel and walked to the longhouse. You were not leaving things as they were
Randvi was content with keeping you close to her as a friend. She knew others feared her presence and when you got the nickname “Randvis Drengr” she was sure pests would keep away, hopefully scared enough not to mess with her and her possessions
Yet all it took was one clueless recruit from Mercia to make everything she was meticulously building fall apart.
She glanced at the note and crumbled it tossing it to the side amongst the others discarded letters with all her hidden feelings for you.
-Vika- the name feeling like a cats sandy tongue on her hand.
She grabbed her small knife and started carving another wooden statue for the map, getting rid of the bigger chunks first before shaving down the sides to give it the shape she wanted to
“Randvi?” She stopped and she hated how fast she felt heat blossom in her chest.
She didn't look up intending to distance herself properly from you this time
“I’m assuming it's not a good time, I really wanted to bring you your gift though..”
She heard rustling and a soft scraping as some of the unplaced statues were moved on her desk to make place for a rolled fabric. Her eyes widened and she got up leaving her tools on the table and unrolling the piece
“For your maps. I noticed they are one of the few things entertaining you here”
It was true for through them, she felt like she could almost get a taste of these lands save for that one trip the two of you took a month ago
“Thank you” with that she finally looked up to you and you took a step back “Was it, Was I mistaken?”
She seemed confused until she felt a tear run down her cheek. She quickly went to wipe it off her face but it seemed like it was only the beginning of her falling apart herself
The Gods must have been punishing her by showing her what could’ve been, Giving her someone so caring by her side only to be eternally out of reach
You came close to her immediately and held her cheeks in your hands concerned “What's the matter?” And she fell quiet unsure of what to say
There was so much to say that it almost felt useless to say anything at all
“Did something happen while I was away? Is there someone you need me to take care of?” And she laughed taking a sharp inhale in an attempt to stop her tears to no avail
“Only thing that was upsetting was your lack of presence” she spoke before she could stop herself “Oh Freya I’m so shameful, I have everything I need and yet I”
She couldn’t bring herself to say, not that she had to when she felt you kiss her, and in a desperate attempt to show she felt the same she kissed back with as much force pulling you closer, her arms around your neck diving beneath the furs and feeling the hot skin
She felt your velvet tongue stroke hers as you explored and tried every variant you could pulling and tugging at her lips wanting to taste all of her and the only thing that could be heard in the empty map room were her soft moans and Barely there soft wet sounds of your kisses
Breathing never felt like more of a burden than it did now when she felt you pull away and look at her, face flushed and pupils blown
And the realization of crossing that line hit her like stones in her stomach and a burning sensation clogging her throat . Yet she still ached to stay in your embrace as her thumbs gently caressed the skin beneath your jaw
“No I, I didn't stop you. It was my responsibility” she found herself say and immediately regretted it. She saw your heart sink in the way your face paled and your arms softened and eased out of her space.
You took one, two steps back and traced the wooden edges of the table. You smiled with a frown looking like it was your turn to cry yet your eyes were dry.
You tapped the fabrics twice “I’m eager to see what you create with these. Have a good day miss” and with a bow you left the map room. She hunched over the table and continued crying struggling to keep her voice down
The feast buff. It lifted everyone’s spirits and you could hear singing all across the village way before they even entered the longhouse, way before anyone had anything to drink at all.
Norse knew how to celebrate and usually you yourself loved these nights. But tonight they sat heavy on your shoulders and you knew as Randvis Drengr and Eivors left hand it wouldn't be wise not to attend.
Vika seemed in high spirits as she talked with her friends and fellow soldiers of how she was ready to explore the new traditions, occasionally glancing your way and straightening her back and fixing her hair.
Maybe it was time to move on you considered
“A storm looms over you. Did Randvi not like your gift after all?” You looked at Eivor walking up to you. She leaned against the wooden walls of your hut tossing her axe on the snow and crossing her arms and legs ready to listen to you
You smiled “She did. So much that I misread the situation entirely” You confessed and Eivor looked concerned “Oh…” you both let your eyes wander to the darkening skies and the new hues the snow covered roads took “Nothing a few drinks can’t fix I’m sure” She patted your back and you shook your head with a smile. If it lead to another late night of you two cry laughing about your failed love stories then yes, you were than looking forward to it
“Ill gather the new recruits and meet you there” She nod and walked down the hill the long house
You motioned for the rest to come “Come. I’m sure you will enjoy the celebration”
“WIll you be sitting with us?” Vika questioned and rested her hand on your shoulder
You smiled “What makes you think any of us stay seated?”
She was confused but then it looked like she went through a list of possible activities and chuckled “Right. Well should you want to rest your bones we could sit for a drink together”
You nod and looked up to see Randvi leaning against the door frame, her eyes piercing right through Vika in obvious distaste. Vika grip tightened on you concerned and with a polite nod aimed at Randvi you directed your attention to the girl
Eivor was right. There truly was little few cups of ale wouldn't fix ,for you found yourself playing orlog and joining eivor for a friendly brawl and show of power while re enacting the tales of your weeks long raid entertaining the others in the room, who would occasionally chime in with song or a spectacle of their own
You tried to ignore Randvis reactions, but when she sat with her legs raised high on the table, a cup of ale in hand,listening to your stories with a softened expression and an easy smile on her lips you felt like you were losing your mind
She was handcrafted by the Gods, you were sure
You pressed a hand on Eivors arm “Ill go sit down and rest for a bit. Clear my head from the ale”
“Sure but later let's go aim some arrows. See whose aim is better”
Agreeing to this stupid game you sat at the far back of the room looking at the others when your eyes caught Vika coming your way, clearly tipsy and bolder than ever
“You were right. There really is no time for sitting”
You laughed and watched her sit on the bench next to you letting her body weight fall against your torso
“Good to see it's up to your standards”
“Ha- what standards ? My people would benefit from learning a thing or two from you and your traditions”
You let the liquid in your cup roll as you mindlessly watched it swoosh back and forth
“Ugh, she again” you heard Vika groan with distaste and suddenly you felt alarmed.
Oh someone’s growing a little too comfortable if they already found someone they dislike in the clan
You thought and your eyes followed her line of sight to find them land on Randvi, to which you felt rage reignited within you. aggressively defending her hardly seemed proper though
“What ails you my little freeloader” You jokingly said and she laughed not sensing the bitterness in your tone. Quite the oblivious one
“She can't seem to get off my back. She keeps glaring at me. How do you all live with her in charge ?” You shook your head
“No I-“ she was interrupted by someone calling your name and you both looked up at Randvi who gracefully approached your table,arms loosely crossed the blue cloak dancing, gracing her walk.
“Yes?” Vika sat up and glared at her and with a raised hand you blocked her from advancing any further
“A moment please?” Randvi asked ignoring Vika and she left expecting you to follow.
You stood up and Vika grabbed you arm “Where are you going” you winced hating how excited you were that Randvi called for you but decided to follow your initial goal
Cut of all unnecessary ties
“I won't be long” and with that you left following her outside. You looked around and found her at the back hidden between the wooden carved columns where the shadows almost hid her save for her bright red hair
You stopped a few steps away from her and she seemed deep in thought. You looked at the little white clouds forming from your breath and let your eyes wander around contemplating what to do, giving her space to speak her mind. The cold air sure was quick to sober you up
“What in hellheim was that?” She spat and you looked up confused
“Was I just someone who entertained your sexual fantasies while you found someone else?” You found her way of speaking crude and unfitting of her character
“Randvi this is madness. What are you talking about?”
“That English woman who has been all over you from the port till now. Did you perhaps go sleep with her before visiting me in the map room today as well?” She said with a challenging half smile and your mouth fell open in shock
“Do you really think so little of me?” You were hurt, upset.
“And what if I Did Randvi ? Would it be bad if I moved on finally?”
“Yes, because you are supposed to love me!” She confessed with a raised voice which seemed to surprise her as well. Too many bottled up feelings threatening to spill
“And what will you do with my love?” You took a step closer towering over her looking into her eyes and when she tried to look away you grabbed her face and forced her to look at you
“Accept it ? Let me warm your empty bed till your beloved husband comes back and then? Discard me till I’m of use again?”
Now it was her time to look as if she bit on bitter poison, your words cutting deeper than intended. You felt bad for using her situation against her. A situation she never wanted to be in to begin with. A sacrifice she took for the peace you currently lived in
“You have every right to feel that way” she spoke “But my feelings for you are true, and if by any chance you feel the way I do I will fight for this”
She surprised you and you considered her words. Fight for this? As in…
“Maybe not yet. But I will find a way to do so” She said with determination as she timidly went to caress your cheek “Maybe I wouldn't say all this but when you showed me what I could have… I tasted what a future with you would be. Watching it be stolen right beneath my feet from some new recruit who knows nothing of your character, From someone who doesn’t know you like I do, No. I wont allow that”
Her grip on your leather armor tightened as she pulled you down to her height and feverishly kissed you like it would be the last kiss you would have only she was determined this was the first of many more to come
You pressed her against the wall and slid one leg between hers which she eagerly spread for you.
“Randvi-“ you whispered between kisses never thinking the day would come where you would have her like this
You said her name again and again between kisses like a prayer, worshipping her like she deserved your hands running up and down her waist, bothered by her layered attire yet still feeling her plush chest, her curves and toned arms.
You tugged at her blue cloak revealing her collar bones and trailed kisses from her neck down to her shoulder which she welcomed by holding your head close to her, her fingers diving in your braided hair
She opened her eyes for a second and looked behind you at the new recruit, the girl staring at the two of you in shock and she felt victorious in the way she softly and sensually called out your name claiming you, showing that you were entirely hers now
Vika ran back to the longhouse distraught and Randvi quickly forgot of her presence when she felt you caress and fondle her chest
She whimpered and you pulled away slightly, pleased to find that small bit of information that this was a very sensitive spot for her.
With one hand on her hips you started grinding her crotch against your thigh and with the other you found her nipple above her clothes and toyed with her hearing the soft pleased hums and gasps that escaped her
You could feel her grow more confident as she picked up the pace on your thigh eager to chase her release and now you supported her weight with both hands wrapped around her ass
You could feel her wetness dampen the fabric of your pants and that was a compliment in itself to know how eager she was, how much she craved you.
You dove back into her neck nibbling on the flash and biting
“I've been waiting so long for this” you confessed and gently softened the pace that earned a pained whine from her “Shall we take this to your chambers?” And she smirked
“Hm, no need” and she came back for a kiss as you let your hand dive in her pants beneath her undergarment. Your fingers found her wet folds and trailed a soft line which would’ve made her scream save for the hand you place on her mouth in time
She’s been craving this as much as you had. Knowing this alone made your own cunt ache and drip into the fabric
You started fondling small circles around her puffy clit and whispered in her ear soft praises, asking her to be quiet “If we get caught you don't get to cum” and you felt a new wave of wetness coat your fingers which slowly found her entrance. You tested the waters soon realizing she wasn’t patient enough to take it slow and you quickened your pace.
Her legs started to give in and you wrapped an arm around her shoulders holding her close to you and her grip on your clothes tightened trying to balance herself.
She called out your name, pleading to let her cum and you kept your pace steady, the way she liked and instructed you to until you felt her bite down on your neck harshly to swallow a scream,coming completely undone in your embrace to which you let out an audible moan yourself mixed with pleasure and pain
Unwilling to pull out, you kept thrusting your fingers in a more gentle pace now till you found fit to withdraw your hands and bring them up to your lips, cleaning them off her slick, enjoying the sour sweet taste.
You let her catch her breath enjoying how she clung to you not really wanting to widen the distance between the two of you
“Randvi” You whispered to her and kissed the top of her head affectionately.
You felt her smile in your neck “I love you” and she nod whispering the same and finally looking up to give you one more weak kiss still in the heights of her release
“I expect that Ill start seeing you more often now?” She asked suddenly insecure on if I this was just a one night thing and you smiled
“Certainly. The clan would start growing suspicious if Randvis Drengr wasn’t by her side anymore”
