#ranty mcranter

[agkhadkhgkhadkhad]

I feel like this is the least adult thing to complain about ever but AGJHHAD I'M AN ADULT DAD CAN'T YOU JUST TREAT ME LIKE ONE AGHHADHADHGHAKDGJHDHAHFHGHAHDJAD

[whenthestarsgo]

I have maybe met a total of 3 professionals in my life that know both and prefer FCP.  Three is actually just an estimate.  It may even be fewer.  And when I say know, I mean know well enough to work on it in a professional capacity.  Like I'm gonna need to see your resume before you start dissing Avid.  

Avid certainly has its issues but compared to FCP, it's like a dream machine.  I saw this cartoon the other day where it was these elderly people and they were all like, "Off to use to Avid!" and I absolutely wanted to kick shins.  I am willing to bet whoever drew that had never actually used it for anything professional.  I don't know why it gets me so mad, but the whole 'only old timers use Avid and the hip, new, fresh, young thing to do is FCP' is so ridiculous.  You don't wanna learn Avid, fine.  Don't.  You can make your living on FCP stuff.  But don't go around spouting FCP is "taking over" the industry unless you actually, oh I don't know, work in the industry?  Your indie movies in Virginia Beach don't count.  

I know FCP.  Have worked on it professionally.  It's not a bad system for a single editor setup.  It's not.  But even just throwing one assistant into the mix and, if you've worked on Avid, then be prepared to be annoyed constantly.  The other day I was exporting something from FCP and the resulting QT had the music starting over at every cut.  W-T-F.  

So no, Avid selling off one fringe portion of it's company that is for the CONSUMER marketplace, does not mean it is slowly being run over by its FCP competitors and will be obsolete in two years.  And anyone who tells you differently is fooling themselves and you.  

I definitely understand how technology works.  How in the free market people will come up with programs that make things cheaper and easier and it keeps it competitive.  I think FCP has done a great job forcing Avid to fix some of its problems and I believe more Avid problems will be fixed in the future thanks to FCP.  But FCP "taking over" Hollywood?  Not just yet.  Maybe, MAYBE in 10 or 20 years that could that change, (the same way Avid took over and the Moviola and Steinbeck went to the storage houses) but they are no where close right now. 

I won't even discuss FCPX.  

Sigh.

[agkhadkhgkhadkhad]

[agkhadkhgkhadkhad]

afkhads random text post about my -.-

Well it's not so much -.- as I don't usually like when things don't go as I plan them.

I was supposed to go to QSA movie night tonight. I like QSA. QSA is awesome and hilarious. I was going to make rainbow cupcakes and it was going to be awesome, and yeah. 

I woke up this morning and mom went "Remember tonight we're going to see Rachel perform in The Wiz."

Okay. Okay. Okay. Wait. I love Rachel. She's an adorable, fantastic 16 year old and I was fuckin honored when she decided I was the first one to come out to, but I had never been told when this actually was. We had mentioned going when we saw the Hunger Games, but there was no day mentioned. It would have been nice to know, at least a little in advance so I didn't go "YES PLANS, I WILL MAKE THEM."

So my plans went out the window.

I'm not so much pissed, because like I said Rachel is an adorable fantastic kid, but I had plans. I liked them plans.

No cupcakes and queers for me D:

[agkhadkhgkhadkhad]

If Matt uses the L word one more time I'm going to punch him in the face. It's been two weeks and already I feel trapped and like I'm looking for an excuse to be like "Hey, no, bye." I don't think normal people are supposed to feel this way when they're in a relationship.

[agkhadkhgkhadkhad]

When I don't sleep I get rambly and emotional

I feel really just- I don't know how exactly to describe how I feel tonight other than bad. I hate when I look at my life and I see how much I miss out on certain things. I know complaining isn't going to help anything, but I hate being sick. I hate my illness. If I could have never heard the words Fibromyalgia or Chronic Fatigue Syndrome I would gladly have kept them from my vocabulary. I hate that I'm a 20 year old and I get to watch the people I know do everything under the sun and I have to choose. I have to think so hard about everything. About whether I'm going to be able to do it and whether I'll be able to do what I need to do the next day if I do do it. I can't be a stupid kid who goes out on a Wednesday clubbing and shows up at school the next day. I go out Wednesday and I'm in bed til Friday at least. I just want to be a stupid kid sometimes and I know that's a fucking selfish thing to want, but I want it because I haven't had it. Ever. I was diagnosed with this illness that some people won't even believe me when I say I have it at 12 years old and I've had to worry about everything constantly since and I hate it.

More than being a stupid kid, I want to have a future. I want to plan for a future and know I can go out and get it. I want to know that if I need to work two jobs, or hell one job, to pay for college in another city or even state, I'm not going to end up hospitalized and have to come home to mom and dad. I want to have a family one day. I want to think I can take care of a kid one day in the far distant future and support them. I want to have love sometime in the relatively soon future and know I can be something of a good person to love. I haven't actually dated someone who wasn't a million states away since I was 17 it pretty much sucks.

I don't want to be so damn scared about everything because it's how I've trained myself to be by dealing with this for years. I don't want to keep constantly disappointing people because I can't do things.

Now I'm going to listen to youtube, laugh at a bunch of things and convince myself at least half a dozen times to leave this up because me and personal things like this tend to not go so well together without some anxiety.

[agkhadkhgkhadkhad]

I found an RP based in my city...

I'm not going to link to it or anything, because that feels wrong somehow. I am however going to post a snippet of the description and say how it's WRONG WRONG WRONG.

The town of Sacramento, located in South California leaves much to be desired. Each mundane day passes as per usual. Literally where everyone knows your name.

1. SACRAMENTO IS NOT IN SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA. NO. This is wrong. We are in fact classified as in Northern California. Occasionally someone will say it's Central California. NEVER ARE WE SO CAL.

2. We are not a town. We are a city. A simple wikipedia read will tell you we are a city.

3. While it can be incredibly mundane for some people (read ME) it's really a place where A LOT happens. There's shows to go to, festivals that happen and a good deal of violence. In fact, about a week ago there was a shooting about a block from my house. I'm pretty sure this does not count as mundane.

4. No one knows everyone's name. Ever. I've lived in the same house for 7 years and my neighbors still don't know my name. I can tell you they're Samoan and that they smoke pot every night at approximately 9 or 10 pm. I could tell you my other neighbor's own a tow truck company and are still celebrating Chinese New Year by shooting off fire works. I still can't tell you their names.

This has been a rant because I am tired and ranty and I have never experienced seeing my city written about. I wanted to join the masses of rpers I've seen who have had the chance to rant like this.

[benjwhishaw]

SO MUCH CRYING. AT THIS TIME. THIS EARLY IN THE DAY. BECAUSE OF ALL MY FUCKING LOVE FOR MERLIN. I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH EVEN IF IT HAS REALLY FLAWED WRITING I STILL LOVE IT OKAY IT HAS ONE OF THE MOST BRILLIANT AND AMAZING AND DOWN TO EARTH CASTS EVER AND I JUST FINISHED WATCHING THE SEASON FINALE AND IT'LL BE BACK AFTER MONTHS OF WAITING AND I CAN'T WAIT THAT LONG I CAN'T SURVIVE WITHOUT IT WHAT WILL I DO. WILL SHERLOCK BE ENOUGH TO DISTRACT ME. SO MANY THINGS HAPPENED THIS EPISODE. I HAVE LOST THE ABILITY TO CAN, WORLD. HELP ME. HELP ME.