so this is totally random and I'm really only posting this because it's somewhat anonymous, nobody I know irl knows I have this acc.
recently I started rewatching once upon a time. it was my favorite show for years, it's special to me because it was the first real "adult" tv show I ever watched. the first time through when I was in like 5th grade my favorite character was Captain Hook. dont get me wrong I still LOVE his character, he's so entertaining but there's something about Archie (Jiminy Cricket) thats stuck with me this time around.
this year has been hard. someone really close to me passed away just days before the pandemic hit, and because of the shutdown my mental health has been at an all time low. I really felt like I've hit rock bottom, it's a lonely feeling. and it hurts. but when I watched Archie's episode, the one in season 1 that was all about his backstory, it started to hurt a little less.
ive always gone to art, to characters for comfort. whether I write them myself or somebody else does, they're more constant than any real person. when at 11 I was obsessed with Captain Hook because he was "hot" (funny coming from an 11 year old) I was happy. I wasn't hurting like I am now. I didnt need comfort from him, I just needed entertainment. But with Archie it's different. Archie's character is so genuinely caring, he's so sweet and gentle. he's passionate about making people feel better. The way he talks to people, the sympathy and genuine concern in his eyes when he sees that someone is hurting.. it's a damn good performance from Raphael Sbarge.
his character (at least to me) isn't "hot" like 5th grade me thought Captain Hook was. he's the kind of character who I want to just give me a big hug and tell me that everything's going to be okay. It would be a dream to have him as a friend irl.
anyways, enough of me rambling. go watch ouat if you haven't!!! it's going off of Netflix (at least in the us) on September 6th, go binge it before it leaves haha.
hope y'all are having a good night! sweet dreams :)
