#ray's yapping

[corrya]

Look at her... I want to put her in a blender and shake her up!! I love her

[corrya]

There's never enough love for them I fear

weird girl you're pretty sure didn't exist until your soccer captain died of exposure in the woods x stereotypical nerdy weirdo except she's probably the worst person you know

[corrya]

big day of work being annoying about my ocs and watching silly television, will happen again tomorrow!!

[ray935sworld]

I fear I'm not confident enough to post the stuff I write online yet. Soon, though, I do want to write stuff specifically to post on here, but that might be a bit (I am also deep into writer's block rn I fear). I will definitely also give you my thoughts on other stuff as well soon trust 🙂‍↕️

I will literally never complain about getting all of your thoughts. It is so very fun to read !!

I'm shaking Dani so hard rn. MY BOY, I'M SO SORRY. It's so very confusing for him, I'm sure. (Also record scratch Part 2 ‼️ I'm so hyped) But I'm so sorry for laughing just a tiny bit at Dani's pov simply because of how harsh the whiplash would be. Like, "Wow, I'm gonna get eaten out alright, nvm, okay, let's veer for a blowjob- THAT'S NOT A BLOWJOB" The concept is so silly in a this is also a serious topic way. Also, the idea that Dani is frustrated cause Jorge is taking his sweet sweet time and Dani then trying so desperately to speed things up and it goes the opposite direction (ofc I'm ignoring the topic of feeding off of someone is such an intimate idea that yeah...but that doesn't apply AS much here).

Also, yes, the hunger thing. Obviously, I mentioned it a bit before with the double entendre but I see it should be looked at a deeper level cause yes, real hunger and sexual hunger are two very different things, and I simply can't imagine how Dani felt in that moment cause yes as you mentioned, why does he look THAT hungry. Again, with the prey thing, Dani enjoys it to a point, but also, the wtf aspect is so so very much there. Like...the thought isn't even gonna cross his mind. All Dani is gonna possibly think is just why, why, why, and the logical excuses he can come up with, and all of them are nowhere near close enough because he simply doesn't have the context or knowledge needed to get there. I think even if he did know vampires existed, there would be the trust aspect of it all again cause Dani, in his eyes, can't see why Jorge would think he'd take it wrong. Cause Dani loves him entirely and completely, so ofc he'd take the vampire thing as well as he can cause it's Jorge. But Jorge obviously wouldn't think that way cause ofc stuff like that isn't gonna go well. Projected vampire guilt, dare I say, cause he hates it. Why would anyone else feel differently?

I'm gonna scream, the idea of Jorge putting SOOO much effort into making sure Dani is safe when drinking from him is AHHHH WTF RAY THAT'S CUTE. That's a level of devotion and adoration I can only dream of reaching. I can't imagine many vampires going to such lengths to ensure the safety of their partners. They'd rather not drink from them at all to avoid the risk or simply not care (but that's just me and knowing the inherent...aspect of selfishness that can follow a vampire....the inverse of the guilty, the selfish).

I'm back to my screaming about Dani portion of my yapping. It's so very extreme of me to say Dani was choosing between life and death cause he wasn't but he could have been... (Jorge we know you would literally never but I'm so dramatic) and that's such an actual insane level of trust...DANI YOU LOVE THAT MAN SO MUCH I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE 🫵🏻

Jorge, I know Dani lectures your ass about your insecurities and guilt cause he so doesn't care about the aspects you think he cares about. (Skip forward: you have proven my point, he does lecture him ty ((Skip forward again: I READ YOUR MIND))) I could say something so very insane about kissing someone with their blood on your lips but I think I'm gonna keep quiet about that one...

VEIWING YOURSELF AS A MONSTER *slams credit card on table* I'm so interested Ray, I'm so very into tropes like that (I'm seeing a pattern here, either I'm very easy to please or you just know the way to my heart). SKILLET MENTION, I love that song so bad, I have it on a few of my playlists. I do adore giving tropes/stories/concept/people songs all the time, it's a bit of my thing I fear. YOUR YAPPING WAS GREAT MWAH MWAH I LOVED IT

Moral of the story is just trust clearly. That's it /j

AAAAH, I totally get that. But IF you ever want to post something PLEASE tell me so I can read it :)

YES PLS LAUGH. IT'S FUNNY. I was laughing while writing it too! To me Dani literally was like "yippie yippie. Sexy time. Not gonna walk for - WHAT THE FUCK? BLOOD? Wrong body liquid being sucked! Wrong body liquid!" Sorry Dani. (oh yeah drinking blood can be so intimate and romantic, especially when the vampire SAYS how much he needs it. AAAAGHH. chewing on my finger. But yeah that's another story)

Oh I so agree. The switch from prey (sexual) to prey (food) would be WILD. Biggest wtf moment. And imagine Dani is trying to understand it. Because obviously there was a switch in Jorge in that moment. Cause he wouldn't just jump from one to the other. So there was a point or something that caused the switch. (Dani saying all the 2 meaning food/sex things) And it's Dani so he also wants to understand what was going on with in that moment. Like when he was drinking has blood. Dani wants to understand why Jorge couldn't keep his need to drink blood pushed down. Like... Did he not had enough before? Does he need more? Is it a general problem? Was there something triggering his hunger? And of course he wants to UNDERSTAND the hunger. Because he as a human has no idea what it's like to be hungry like that and to have the hunting need and the blood lust and all that. (Okay Jorge would definitely get insecure if he has to describe that, unless he describes it DURING a blood lust and gets some blood afterwards. As a little treat. Hihi. OH. Jorge fake hunting Dani when they agreed Jorge can drink from him. Like Dani being chased around their house only to be grabbed by Jorge and thrown on the bed/ against a wall and drink from him. Yep. I can definitely see something like that.) And ooooh. Dani not understanding why he would think of Jorge any different. MY HEART. MYYYY HEEAAAAART. And Jorge being all like "I'm a monster and you are-" And then Dani is already on him, cuddling.

OOOH. THE SELFISHNESS OF OTHER. Okay what if Jorge knows other vampire that have human partners who have hurt them like seriously? Liek full on faint, hospital, blood transfusion or even worst? And that's why Jorge never wanted to drink from Dani and now doing it without telling/ asking Dani - oh heartbreak. THE GUILT. THE GUILT. And Jorge being all worried and apologetic. Meanwhile Dani trying to calm him and Jorge is like "Fuck... Dani, don't you get it, I could have killed you!" "And I trusted you that you don't. I trust you with my life. Literally." Dani is REALLY down bad for that man.

I think the self view as a monster and guilt thing from Jorge and the need to understand it fully to make sure Jorge is okay from Dani would be the next big points.

Okay - that's my yapping for now. I had to write it slightly rushed so if I didn't say anything specifically to the other stuff... I AGREE. I ABSOLUTELY AGREE. YES YES YES. NO COMMENTS TO ADD. But I have to get to my apprenticeship now so I hope you enjoyed this!!

[ray935sworld]

*following posts includes cursing and ranting*

WHY THE ACTUAL FUCK DID I THOUGHT THAT THIS WAS THE BEST DEGREE TO CHOOSE???? WHY?!

I WAS FUCKING STUPID! NAIVE EVEN!

I could have been a teacher. Studying English. Reading. Thinking about the World. Learning a language on a higher level that I love so dearly.

I could have learned about my native language or fucking religion or something LIKE THAT! GEOGRAPHY!

Everything. Literally everything.

HISTORY. OH MY GOD.

BUT NO! I CHOSE THIS FUCKED UP WHATEVER THE HELL THIS IS AND NOW I'M CALCULATING IF LEARING FOR THE EXAMN IS STILL WORTH IT OR IF I SHOULD JUST DROP IT AND FOCUS ON OTHERS SO I CAN PASS THE YEAR ANYHOW

I will have to rewrite the exam. There's no was I'm passing.

FUCK YOU CONTRACT LAW.