I was thinking about the first time post game that Gan writes Astarion a "love letter"
And how he's a super dick about it at first "why would I want something so trivial? It's beneath me." Turning his nose up at it, he's offended by something so low class being given to him.
Gan gives it to him anyway and tells him "do whatever you want. burn it, rip it up, keep it. I don't care." They go on about their business. They still write them. He still turns his nose up.
They test his ass and stop after the fourth one. He'd gotten one a month (before Gan started traveling when they switch to weekly if they'll be gone long).
He notices when he doesn't get the 5th one but is too arrogant to say anything.
When the 6th doesn't arrive, he's a dick about it.
"What happened to your little missives? Finally realized they were worthless drivel..."
Gan doesn't take the bait though.
Gan just tells him "well you said it was beneath you and I don't want to offend the Lord of the house."
And they leave it at that.
He sees them in the garden one day seven months later and he still hasn't gotten a letter from them. Gan still writes them but doesn't give them to him cause he's being an inconsiderate and hurtful brat.
They're outside writing Minthara one though. Minthara cherishes the fuck out of hers 😆😆😆
He joins them on the bench and looks over their shoulder and sees them writing one. He comments that they shouldn't bother wasting the parchment and ink and that he won't accept it.
Gan only remarks that's fine because it's not for you 🤷🏾♀️
He doesn't like their response and snatches it from them in a fit. And Gan just calmly puts the quill down and stares at him.
He pouts that no one should find these letters sweet or charming. How it's just fancy words that aren't worth anything. And Gan stands up and remarks "you seem really angry about something that is beneath you."
And they grab their quill and papers and head back inside. He reads what they were writing to Minthara and it pisses him off a lot. He rips it up, yells at one of the staff to clean up the mess, and goes inside to read his cause the asshole never opened his letters.
So he finally reads what they say. Gan usually just writes a very small poem or something they love about them or expresses gratitude for their presence...occasionally something erotic (the one they were writing for Minthara at that time was erotic LMAO)
But the first one they wrote was reassuring him that they were in this together for however long they could be (they were not a vampire at the time).
The second one was a reminder about the day they told him about his pet name and how that was a huge step for them to share that with him.
The third one was a poem they'd seen in a book that reminded them of him.
The fourth one that they gave him simply said "for all the things I've done in this life, committing to you was one of the best."
And he feels like such a dumbass but he doesn't want to admit it. Too proud, too arrogant, too much of a jerk.
So he takes all of them and carefully places them into a blank leather bound book (I'm imagining a photo album type book equivalent) and he puts a ward on it and stores it away.
Finally approaches Gan later that evening. He doesn't want to apologize but he does want to tell them that maybe getting the letters isn't so terrible (he also really liked what they were writing to Minthara and he's slightly jealous because of course he is that he hasn't gotten an erotic one 🙄)
So he decides to curl up with them on a couch/bench/whatever piece of furniture and they enjoy each other's company for a while. He hesitates for a good part of the evening to even address his rude fucking behavior earlier that day.
But then Gan is like "alright I need to go rewrite something because you were an asshole and ruined something of mine."
And he grabs their wrist as they're walking away from where he remained seated. And he actually apologizes. Like actually says the words and not his typical "address it but not appropriately or adequately" kind of way.
In a moment of honesty, he just apologizes for destroying the parchment. He doesn't say he was wrong though 🙄
But he apologizes for behaving like that. Gan just says okay and leaves the room. He's miffed he wasn't forgiven but doesn't complain.
When they are in bed later that night, he quietly mentions that he'd like to start getting them again (and actually apologizes for his behavior a second time!).
Gan doesn't acknowledge him right then, they just go into trance.
When he wakes up the next day, Gan is gone already doing their evil overlord shit.
But he notices two sealed letters on the nightstand from the 5th and 6th months and he smiles a little to himself.
Just "hmmm they still wrote them anyway" and he's relieved on the inside that they did.
The 5th month's letter was his erotic one 😂
