it has been 2 years since we departed, to be exact, you escaped without a trace. as it was yesterday it happened. many things i want to be thankful for, one of them is this story i reflect on each year.
i remember vividly how it unfolded, how i was scrambling to find any link to connect to you, how you cruelly push me away, how i cried many times during the days and the nights asking god why, am i awful, not worth a proper words of goodbye, not worth an explanation why?
but i slowly see the departure as a blessing to learn to lean on myself only, how it pained me to take a step further from those sad thoughts of why, how it created curiosity on me to reach higher and stay stronger, just so one day i can stand in front of you and ask why? cant admit any of these were easy exercises, there were moments i doubt the things i am doing, the times i am outreaching, the moments i couldnt help but cry and ask god again and again how come he left me behind.
but dear, i will always remember those life lessons you shared with me, just so i can learn to stand in front of you and be proud of these years of life building. i’d plagued to myself never give up until i see the light of success calling my name.
to my dearest M, I will always remember us that way and another year of reaching up the star that is up high.
