Now you’re gone- Alec Lightwood.
Alec couldn’t think straight for days. Nobody in the institute dared to go near him. The shock felt around the place was unbelievable.
Less than a week ago everything went back to normal. Valentine was dead, the mortal instruments were returned. Except for yourself of course. You were killed while trying to protect Alec and Izzy. You died because of Valentine and his demons.
Alec couldn’t do this alone, He couldn’t raise his 3 year old daughter without her mother. He didn’t know what to do.
When he finally left his room after a few days, those around the institute took in his appearance. Pale skin, dark under eye circles and puffy red eyes. He missed you. He couldn’t protect you. The love of his life died protecting him.
He walked slowly, breathing shallow breaths towards your room. He was scared, he can’t live without you. He opened your room door taking a nervous breath. You never actually slept in your room, you always slept with Alec in his room. He’d hold you in his arms and you ‘d lay your head on his chest listening to his heartbeat.
He thought about everything before entering the room. He sat on the bed, rubbing the blanket you were once wrapped in. All the photos on your wall brought back memories of you and him. Tears welled up in his eye but he blinked them away.
He stood up and walked to your dresser. His favourite perfume you always wore was there, to him it smelt like home. Next was a necklace with a key on it, a key to your new apartment not too far from the institute.
He couldn’t stand being in here, everything reminded him of you. A white envelope caught his eye laying on your bedside table. It was addressed to your daughter and Alec. He recognised your cursive writing. He was hesitant to open it but he knew he had to.
Dear y/d/n, my beautiful daughter and Alec, the love of my life
If you’re reading this I’m sorry. I’m sorry I couldn’t protect myself properly that death took my place. Alec, when y/d/n is older and asks about me, show her this. I don’t want her growing up without ever thinking I never cared for her.
Y/d/n,
Live your life to the fullest, don’t hold back on opportunities. You never know when they’ll come around again. Take risks, don’t hold back and don’t let anyone stop you. It’s your life and live it to the fullest.
You may be a shadowhunter to everyone else in the world but to me and your father you’re Y/n Lightwood, a champion in our eyes and we both love you dearly we cant describe it. Only trust those you familiarize with or associate with, we don’t want you to ever get hurt in any way. We wouldn’t live with ourselves knowing we couldn’t protect you. Enjoy your life but only with those who are trustworthy.
Be fearless! You y/n , are the best shadowhunter I’ve seen! Don’t let fear get in the way of your abilities and remember, you are not alone! You have your dad, Jace, Clary and Isabelle and much more! They all care about you and will do anything to keep you safe.
I hope you find yourself a boy that will treat you right and will treat you like a queen and you treat him like a king, remember it’s a two sided relationship. Respect and honesty is key in your relationship! I want you to find your own Alec, well not with the same name or it could be! Find someone like Alec and live your life with him.
When your older and when your looking back on all the great things you’ve done in your life, I want you to be able to say ‘’I lived’’.
From the day you were born I knew you were truly ours. You had Alec’s black hair and brown eyes but you had my nose and face shape. You were perfect.
Alec if you are reading this, I love you.
You have been my soulmate since day 1 and you have been there through my darkest days and I’m sorry I couldn’t stick to our promise ‘’don’t die’’. I don’t want you to spend the rest of your days mourning over me, I need you too find someone who will love you like I do. Don’t let me hold you back from living your life, y/d/n needs another motherly figure in her life.
I will always love Alec Lightwood and I will love you in the afterlife. I will swear by the angel I will do everything in my power to keep you and y/d/n safe, even if im not here. Please, don’t forget me. Tell the other’s I’m sorry and I love them.
I love you so much Alexander Lightwood and don’t ever forget that, I may not be here physically but I’m here in your heart.
Yours sincerely,
Y/n Lightwood xx
By the time he read through the letter, multiple tears stained the letter. He really couldn’t believe you were gone. He couldn’t accept it.
He held a picture of you and him taken on the birth of your daughter. He always kept it because he thought you looked beautiful. He held it tight in his arm before throwing it to the ground. He stormed out of your room and went to find Izzy, He needed his sister before he did something he would regret.
Izzy caught sight of Alec running through the institute sobbing loudly and crying. She brought him into his arms and fell to the ground holding him. He cried loudly and held onto Izzy like his life depended on it. His body shook but his cries quietened down.
Everyone was quiet and they all felt sympathy for the head of the institute. Y/n was the person that kept him sane and made him happy. She was the light of his life but now she’s gone.
She really was gone and she wasn’t coming back.
