♥︎🍓Can I Really Deal With Love?🍓♥︎ Crona x Reader
“I..I don’t know about this Maka…” Crona said nervously as their shaky hands held onto the letter.
That letter isn’t just a letter. It’s THE letter. The letter is for someone very special, someone that Crona really cares about. They like this person a lot. Whenever their around them..they can’t help but feel like their gonna fall over. They get shaky, nervous, anxious…but it isn’t bad. It’s just that Crona feels a certain way around them, in a good way. Crona is able to tell this person anything. They feel more…comfortable around this person.
Yes, Crona does have their own small group of friends but they aren’t really like this special person.
Maka, who is almost like this person, was the one that got them here. Maka can be really nice and push Crona to come out of their shell some more but why so forceful? They understand that Maka just wants to help but why does it need to be so determining? They cant deal with that.
Soul, kinda like Maka in a way. Soul tries to make them come out of their shell by inviting them over for some boy night together. Make them feel “cool” in a way. But that’s not what Crona is in for…he understands, but he doesn’t know how to deal with trying to be all cool like Soul.
Blackstar, he’s loud. Too loud. He is very confident. But Crona gets to overwhelmed so easily around someone like Blackstar. They can’t deal with that.
Tsubaki, she is really sweet and kind. But she’s just way too kind and sweet. It’s not a bad thing of course but Crona just doesn’t know how to deal with someone so sweet and kind to him like she is.
Kid, Crona isn’t good with helping others, or that’s what they think at least. When Kid has his freak outs over symmetry Crona is lost. How can he deal with that? He cant deal with it at all.
Everyone has to help Crona, everyone does. Cause Crona isn’t like Maka, who is so energetic and ready to go. They aren’t like Blackstar, who is confident and ready to take on every challenge. They aren’t like Soul or Kid, either. Crona isn’t used to certain emotions…they aren’t used to people treating them so nicely. They don’t understand some things like how other people do. They’re lost, Crona is lost. So in return, everyone has to help them. But Crona just feels overwhelmed or confused when they do so. They can’t even ask for help even if they needed it…they don’t want to seem like a nuisance or a burden to their friends. It’s a slow process for someone like Crona.
He appreciates it. He really does, he loves all of his friends for who they really are and are thankful that they accepted them into their arms and into the DWMA. It was really nice getting treated like how they wished to be treated. But Crona couldn’t help but stay on edge.
..Maybe that’s why they love this special person so, so much.
This special person is amazing in their eyes. When they look at them, all they see is just them. Nobody else. Even if there’s a whole entire crowd of people, all they see is them. Just them.
This special person is sweet. They are quiet like how Crona is. They aren’t like Maka, who is energetic and pushes them. They aren’t like Blackstar who is loud and overwhelming. They aren’t like Kid, Soul, or anyone. They are a person who knows someone’s limits and their very own. They know how to be kind without pushing Crona. They know how to control their tone without overwhelming Crona. They know how to not go over the boundary line with Crona. They know how to do everything right.
When Crona first came into the DWMA, they made sure to not overwhelm Crona. They were sweet but not too sweet, just right. Crona was also aware at how they would keep their distance when talking or being near Crona. At first, Crona thought that they didn’t want them around but they soon started to realize that all they wanted ti do was make them feel comfortable.
Crona knows how to deal with that.
Soon, these strange feelings started to grow on Crona. They started to feel so..good(?) when this special person smiled at them, talked to them, or even just slightly brush against Crona’s shoulder. They felt like their heart was beating faster when they saw them. They don’t understand this emotions at all so they go on ahead to ask Maka.
Mama is shocked at first but then she is happy for Crona. She tells Crona that his feelings are Love. Love? That’s a new word to Crona. In Maia’s words;
“Love is a feeling that you have for someone. This person makes you feel happy and warm on the inside, they can also make you feel nervous when they are around. That’s normal.”
So..Crona is in love with this person?
“In other words, you have a crush on them. A crush is having romantic feelings for someone. You have a crush on them Crona. It’s something really beautiful.”
Those words raced around their mind as if they were in front of a whole entire dictionary. Crona had a crush on this special person. This person is making their heart beat faster, making them nervous, making them long for their attention. it’s all normal. It’s all…beautiful.
“Crona,” Maka said with a soft smile. “everything is going to be fine—“
“But what if it doesn’t go fine…? W-What if they say no and-and don’t want to—to be friends anymore..!?” Crona said as tears made way to his eyes. “I…I cant deal with that…!” Maka placed a hand on Crona’s shoulder as she let out a small sigh. “Now you know that they aren’t like that,” Maka said. “i’ll tell you this, even if they do say no..it won’t affect your friendship with them. That also means that they just want to be friends.” Maka explained.
“Please, go for it Crona. I’ll be right here behind this wall watching, everything will be fine.” Maka said as she turned Crona around slowly, her hands on their shoulders. Crona gulped and nodded their head quickly in understanding before Mama gave them a gentle push.
As Crona shakily walked closer to them, they felt like they were gonna throw up!
‘Please don’t throw up please don’t throw up please don’t throw up please don’t throw up—‘
They felt like their world was spinning around them, they felt sick. They felt like they needed to use the bathroom, they felt like they needed to lay down. They felt so anxious.
Crona came into contact with their back, they were sitting on the edge of the balcony that overlooked Death City. The wind making their hair blow slightly.
“Y-Y-Y-Y-Y/n..?” Crona stammered nervously.
Y/n turned their head behind them. They were surprised to see Crona. They smiled at Crona softly. “Oh, it’s you Crona.” Y/n said. “What do you need? Is everything okay?” Crona didn’t say anything as they walked over to Y/n, their grip on the letter tightly.
“I..uh…ngh..I have something to g-give you..” Crona said shakily. Y/n raised a brow at them as Crona handed them the letter. Y/n got off the ledge of the balcony as they opened the letter up, their eyes scanning the paper.
Crona felt like running away, they were scared. What if everything doesn’t go like how Maka said that it would? Will you hate them after this? Crona twiddled with their fingers anxiously, looking around. They looked behind them where Maka was leaking her head, watching the scene with a comforting smile. When Crona heard the paper crumble they turned to see that Y/n had closed the letter back up.
‘Already..!?’ Crona thought. ‘T-They are already done..!? Are they mad..? I cant deal with something like this..!-‘
“Crona,” Y/n said softly. Their suddenly voice made Crona jump a bit. “..Mm..y-yeah..?” They are gonna say no. Crona knew it..! They must think that Crona is hideous, or-or a creep! Who wouldn’t think that about him..? Even he doesn’t feel confident in himself or his looks. It’s understandable if they say no…but Crona hopes that they don’t say no! Crona will feel like a idiot, a complete moron if they say no!
“I-I’m sorry!” Crona suddenly blurred out as they held their head low. “..Huh..?” Y/n gasped confusingly.
“I-Im sorry—I-I don’t know what I was even thinking! I-It’s okay if you-you say no, it’s understandable..! Im really sorry for wa-wasting your time like this—I-I’ll just-“
“Crona!” Y/n suddenly shouted. Crona stopped at his rant and looked at them, small beads of tears at the corner of Crona’s eyes. They let out a small gasp when Y/n hugged them tightly. “Please, don’t say such things about yourself like that. I think that you’re amazing.” Y/n said. “I accept your feelings Crona, I really do. What you said in that letter is beautiful.” Crona couldn’t believe it. Did they really accept their feelings for them? Crona’s shaky hands wrapped themselves around Y/n as they hugged them back, hiding their face in the crook of Y/n’s neck.