#really edgy

[shyartbean]

Fate the Demon/MY Edgy OC!!!lol

[90919091]

At this point tumblr is just for me to scream at nothing

Do you ever get the feeling that you're a nuisance to those you're closest to? I know I have, and it sucks. There's always just those certain ways that a person can push your buttons to make you feel like dirt. It's not necessarily their fault sometimes, but that still doesn't stop me from feeling this way.

[missheartnet]

Oh, my gawd! Zoro and Luffy looked incredible good with Cracker and Dogtooth’s clothes!!!

[free-to-be-no-one-but-mee]

made an aesthetic for myself (x)

[ecstasy-of-poetry]

I Can’t

I can’t do this anymore

Words echo in my head

Yet I make it through each day fine

The work piles up

Because I don’t even try

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I wish I could go back

To have accomplishments as friends

When a B- felt disappointing

Where I’d be stuck inside doing work

Jealous of kids outside at recess

Telling myself I’m so much better

At least I can be successful

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When he would tap my shoulder

Say “Did you get it done?

I forgot. Can I copy?”

And I would sigh, act bothered

But my heart would pound, pound, pound

And explode at a compliment,

“You’re so smart!”

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When impressing someone actually mattered

When I felt pride at every solved equation

When I was motivated, and smart.

And when I always felt I could do such more.

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I’d be a president, or an artist

An astronaut or lawyer

When my future didn’t conclude

Into being a McDonald's employee

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Now I rush into class and whisper

“Hey, slide the homework over.”

He rolls his eyes and complies

Adding a pencil, he knows I’d forget

but my head always pounds, pounds, pounds

And explodes at every thought

“Why can’t I do this?”

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All motivation has left me

As I can’t get up out of bed

Because I can’t find the inspiration

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I can’t do this anymore

(2017)

[redpandamemes]

Silent blood drips is like snow in summer. Unusual but wanted

[redpandamemes]

Feel the ice run in my veins, static blood...

[wondering-wildling]

I just want to apologize to my Brother and Dad for forcing them to read my 86 page 8th grade attempt at a novel.