#really really tired

[koby-official]

Oh stars, I feel like an idiot. I just caught up on everything. DAMN THESE TIME ZONES!

I am so, so glad you all are documenting this so we can see several sides of this horrible situation. The more information we have, the better.

Aramaki's attempted intervention further convinces me that this is Hanahaki. The thing is that this appears to be a variant: same presentation of Classical Hanahaki symptoms, different root cause. There is a strong possibility this isn't a case of unrequited romantic love, but rather unrequited familial love.

The common thread that keeps popping up here is Fleet Admiral Akainu. Hibari, Aramaki, and even you have repeatedly brought him up as a complication to your involvement with each other. Unfortunately, he might be the key here.

I know Hibari's health is delicate now, but the only other thing I can think that may help is for her to talk to Akainu about... well, that I'm not too sure of. It could be her feelings for you. It could be a complication she feels is in their relationship as father and daughter. There is a psychological component to this that I can't take guesses about.

If that doesn't work, then... I'm sorry. I'm running out of resources that might be of use. Hanahaki is a horrible disease, but there are solutions. If this isn't Hanahaki, and is a devil fruit or some other disease, we might be back to square one.

Perhaps the Suncatcher Pirates could help? They're a bunch of academics like me with a massive collection of resources... maybe Pinky could be of assistance?

Pinky is busy with something I would really, really, REALLY not want to become involved with at the moment, I seriously can’t risk getting roped into all that…..

As for her talking to the Fleet Admiral…..I’m not certain that will do anything to help. I worry he would just yell at her….I don’t know how much more I can take in terms of seeing her like this. I’m not blaming her or complaining about helping her, it’s just….Being able to pick up peoples emotions as much as I can isn’t doing me very well right now.

So I’m taking her to Law. He’s in no position to deny us help right now, and he’s the only person who I know can fix this. I feel horrible, like I’m….taking advantage of his suffering. It’s not like I don’t know what it’s like to be held against your will and made to do what others tell you out of fear, I don’t want to be the one doing that to him. I just want Hibari to be better, I just…

I want this to be over.

[belphegor1982]

early/mid-June, halfway through the first major heat wave of this year, like we used to only get once every half-dozen years:

shit, Europe is burning

right now (late July/almost early August, halfway through the FOURTH MAJOR HEAT WAVE OF THE SUMMER:

(source)

SHIT, EUROPE IS BURNING

(those are all the wildfires with more than 30 hectares burnt, with data from the European Forest Fire Information System (EFFIS). The big dots/circles represent more than 40,000 hectares burnt. Yesterday's fire near where I live was over 40 hectares and would be on the map but the map was made before that.)

[bidisasterevankinard]

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That body and brain were not born to live in our society

[shoalofglassfish]

In the doctors office hearing a worker complain about/make fun of her fifteen year old daughter who takes a bunch of meds (to ya know be healthy) and how "they don't make them like they made us"

Kinda sucks since I'm easily the youngest person in this building. I'm waiting on blood results that I should've gotten tested for three years ago.

I dunno. Just a bit of a bummer. I feel bad for her daughter. I hope she has supportive family cause her mom clearly isn't helpful.

[lz-elvyrion]

"I feel like I'm the worst, so I always act like I'm the best"

— I feel like it's my motto in most of my DRs, especially teen or young adult (Gosh, how I need my siblings right now)

[identitty-dickruption]

ultimately all of my diagnoses have ended up feeling vaguely anti-climactic. like. oh okay. I guess that was real that whole time I wasn’t just being a melodramatic little baby. anyway. who cares I already kind of knew what my problem was before we went through all this hassle and bullshit. yknow.

[son-of-drogo]

Getting real tired of living in the "fuck around and find out country.

[belphegor1982]

quick question: are you supposed to feel literally sick with dread (upset stomach, achy legs•, hands trembling a lil bit) just because you go to work in an hour? no? well then.

(•though that might be due to lack of sleep because I've had shitty nights for a week)