#realofthelastones

[dogboykennedy]

“Discourse.” :) Nice. Because asking people not to be an asshole is considered discourse now! Great.

[champagnefriend]

y&m, lullabye+ thnks

young and menace: are you excited for the future of fall out boy? - YES.

lullabye: opinion on ‘elisa stans’? - SHE WANTS TO BE OUT OF THE PUBLIC EYE. LEAVE HER ALONE.

thnks fr th mmrs: best memory? - London, July 2016. I spent 5 whole days with my best friend, Rowan. We live 8,000 miles away from each other, rarely see each other, and we got to spend 5 whole days in an incredible city together. (He’s moving much closer in a week though! I’m so excited!) 

[dogboykennedy]

This is my last post on everything

Because @realofthelastones made that callout post or whatever. This is the last of the drama. I’m done with everything involving this, and all i ask is that people understand this.

1. Has a fic that includes Patrick being molested by his actual brother, Kevin

Yes, I did. I have no defense to this, I’m sorry.

2. The same fic that also includes rape, and from what I’ve been told by others (because i would sooner rather fucking die than read it) it includes other things of that nature.

Patrick was raped at one point in the book, but his brother was taken away about a third of the way through the book and sent to jail while Patrick went through recovery. The fanfiction was not about the abuse itself, but the recovery and Patrick learning to find love for himself again with the help of Gerard and other loved ones.

3. (This happened on wattpad a while ago and a friend of mine was there with me) They, along with another person, made a ship called “declaint”. What that is is Saint and Declan, who are both under the age of four, being aged up (only to fifteen, which isn’t even the legal age of consent!) and put into fictions. This went as far as the them along with the other person saying they were going to write smut between the two because it would “be cute and hot”

I didn’t make the ship. I did write one oneshot on it but that was it. I hate that ship, it’s fucking disgusting and I wish I’d never had anything to do with it in the first place. I’m sorry.

4. (Also on wattpad a while back) Was friends with and read the stories of someone (the other who was with the declaint thing) who wrote “non-con” which is rape. When I talked to her about it, she said she knew it was after I called her out on writing it where Pete forces himself on Patrick even though he’d said no.

Yes, I was friends with her but she doesn’t ship Patrick with anyone anymore and doesn’t write any of that like she used to. She just wants Patrick to be happy with his wife.

5. They’ve been told by more than me that this is triggering, that it’s upsetting. They responded with “don’t like don’t read”

True.

6. Will not stop writing the fiction even though multiple people have called them out on it.

I can’t remember being called out by anyone else. But I may be wrong. I know that the people who have read it, enjoyed it.

7. I told them that it hurt me so much that I physically vomited, that I could never understand how someone could write something so vile, that it triggered me to the point of a panic attack, and they responded with “take it to my tumblr” so I fucking am.

True.

8. (On Wattpad, a while ago) posted stories they’d found on ao3 and Wattpad in a compilation, (description being “stories I want to keep” which makes this next part even more sick) to which the stories consisted of Patrick’s younger self being underage being raped by his older counterparts, who were both above the age of twenty one.

True.

9. Is still friends with two people who have written incest, one consisting of a girl who is around the age of 20-ish who once wrote a detailed scene of Patrick being raped by Gabe, and Pete and Patrick being step brothers while Patrick was trans and Pete got him pregnant.

I disliked her works, I didn’t like what they were writing but I was friends with her because we were going through the same problems at the time. We haven’t talked in a while

10. Is a fucking asshole and a selfish son of a bitch because they refuse to delete the stories because they want to keep writing them.

I’m not still writing these fics. I am rewriting I’m Not Okay, but after that, I plan to stop. I’m talking to my counselor about the trauma that makes me rely on writing and I’m hoping I’ll be able to get over this bump.

It’s okay if you want to unfollow me. But please don’t harass me. I’m tired. I don’t want to go through what I did last night again. I just want this to end because I’m tired and I can’t take any more discourse.

Im trying to change. Im trying to get better. And I promise someday I will stop writing these things, but right now I need them. Im sorry if I’ve triggered anybody with what I write. I’m sorry if I’ve disgusted anyone with what I write. I’m sorry if I’ve offended you and there is no excuse to that. All I ask is that you don’t fight with me. I just want to be left alone.

Thank you.

[discoursequeen]

Do you have the video of Sarah saying n*gro? Or do you know where I can find it?

im not sure about either but maybe check youtube